:)

ehm... the best thing about the last day of year 09 is to spend with my beloved family and favorite man. excapade sushi is already being BOOKED!!! wEEeeEeEe!!! and the macadamia nuts that i craving for such a long time. and the yogurt ice-cream... *wink*....

nothing is better than welcoming a new year and the anniversary with your love one.
is now looking forward to the new year eve sushi dinner with all my beloved one.
and counting down to our 3rd anniversary.
♥ ♥

bye, 2009!!!
Hi, 2010!!!!

and the feeling is really great to get the hard earn money today!
I was paid with my "hard work".

:)))

happy happy new year PEOPLE!

4 days to the anniversary...
the 3rd anniversary of us!
♥ ♥

desperately desperated

lotsa different delicacies today. steamboat. fresh seafood. steam chicken. my favourite mushrooms. veges. steam fish. duck. pork. homemade fish balls and spring rolls. ehm. that's too much to list here. and am so hungry. i can hear my tummy is singing guh luk guh luk for protesting its unsatisfactory to me. however, the nausea that i suffer these few days is really drived me to crazy. when i wanna start eating, i feel like vomiting. YUPS!! the very weird sickness.

seriously, i have no idea with this!! is that consider as indigestion?? argh!! ok, i ate indigestion pills, the symptom still remain the same. sighs. so frustrating. so i ended up with few spoons of soup and the rest watched my family having their luscious dinner alone. :(((

i wanna recover soon. i don't wanna drink soup only on the christmas dinner!! argh!! argh!! argh!!

weeeeee...

Santa Claus is coming to the town...

..... jingle bell... jingle bell....

" i want this, this, this, and this
...
and THIS!"

:))))

结果

结果
还真的病倒了 超难受的

结果
犹豫了好久 依然决定拖着快崩溃的身体去上班
只因为那四句钟 区区十零吉的诱惑

结果
很快就后悔了
但 依然忍过了 原来我是如此能忍的

结果
回到家 眼泪决堤
老妈心疼的责备
服了药 一睡就是到傍晚

结果
和老朋友的聚会 就这样错过了
心有余而力不足啊！
她就那样离开了。。。回去那个实现理想的城市

结果
晕晕沉沉地睡了好久
我依然很想吐

:'(

结果
才发现 原来自己并不是如想象中那么期待生病

呃

辛苦中。。。
凌晨到家 倾盆大雨
摘下那取代眼镜的薄片
双眼 仿佛染了红色
脑袋 竟妄想因此而请假一星期
悲哀
只有这时候
血丝布满的双眼 让我开心

辛苦中。。。
早餐回家 呼噜呼噜晕至下午
没喝酒 但胃
却出奇地像酒后那样不舒服
症状迟迟不退 还误以为是胃痛
把食物往嘴巴里塞 却越来越恶心
脑袋 竟再次闪过歪主意
无奈
只有这时候
就连不舒服 都很兴奋

不想工作
所以 不舒服 就是
不用工作 的“理由”

其实我更不想 当你所谓的好女孩

whootS!

wedding season it is...photo is grabbed from here

it's really touching when a couple has put so much efforts on their special day for well-planning every single thing for their wedding day. and that's really incredible to memorize all the exact date of special occasions that they've spent/celebrate together.

so do you still remember ours?
the answer from you is always saddening.

the nearer to the anniversary day, the scarier it is.
as time never dilutes the unpleasant memories.

love without persistence gives nothing
but leads to a broken ending.
:)

...

great to declare that the PIC is passed!!
:)
different with previous semesters, a grade 5 is not appear in result this time!!
:)
and i can't wait to meet ms. Yong!!
:)
but i still so down when it comes to Wed night, the night that need to prepare for the meeting tomorrow!
:(
and so to Thurs morning, the morning that need to force myself for not dozing off for 2 and half hours. to force myself to pretend that am awake and listening to the "lullaby" that the colleagues are singing. and afterward, it's my show time, the time to sing mine! ish..
:(

sadness and unhappiness are usually come from unsatisfactory.

:(

gosh! Monday is coming again!! how wonderful my day would be if there was only Sunday in a week. personally, i dislike Monday because am still in weekend mood; dislike Tuesday because i feel i've nothing to talk for the weekly meeting; dislike Wednesday because i can't go movie as it's really tiring after working for whole day long; dislike Thursday because there is still another meeting need to be presented; dislike Friday because i start to be disgusted with the work that i repeat everyday; dislike Saturday because it's weekend but i still have to work for half day long.

and tomorrow will be the 3rd week of internship!! 9 more weeks to suffer. argh!! virtually, the colleagues and the manager are nice to us but i just don't feel like going to work everyday. i feel stress. when working inside the lab, the suffocation and the smell of chemical irritated me; when sitting outside the lab and key in the data into computer, the boredom kills me!!! hmp!!! can't research for the topic that i was assigned in the office since there is without internet access for us. and when coming back from work, i am totally powerless to do research!!! argh!!!

and 3rd year sem 2 result is going to release soon. argh! i don't wanna retake PIC la! god, god, please bless me!! lady luck, lady luck, please stay with me!! Mr. Jobrun, Mr. Jobrun, please don't hurt my heart!!

praying hard for 9th of DEC :'(

mess-up

天空很阔
晴朗无云
月亮好圆
色黄且亮
星星几多
闪烁不停
抬头一看
啊！
双颊超痛！

hmph!... somehow i feel am in inferiority condition again. probably blacken my hair in the spur of moment lead me to a severe self-contempt tune. i know i am a weirdo to human beings as this kind of oddity is only belong to lion. supposedly, only lions know my feeling now. totally as if you tried to shave off the hair of a lion, the hair that reveal its dignity.

and eyes are infected again!! the two eyes start to present redness and uneasiness since the forth day that i worked inside the lab. what May had researched is that one of the chemical used in the lab which is called formaldehyde can irritate eyes with a concentration of 0.1 ppm above. argh! seriously, i can't imagine how my eyes will become after 3 months of internship!! :(

argh! and my face!

random post

hmp.
lack of sleep recently. so stress.
tomorrow another meeting and i hope everything will be carried on smoothly and peacefully. hope the manager will not torture us. hey, don't scold us as how you scold other colleagues OKAY?

goodnight guys!
and HI, the last month of the year - DEC!!

嗯

“。。。一个人假日发呆 找不到人陪我看海。。”
重复听着倒带。。。
仿佛唱出了我的心声、我的心境、我的感受
忘了何时开始，我想依赖而你却都不在
忘了何时开始，你都不在当我需要你的爱
忘了何时开始，你开始用金钱来填补你给的空白

你把最好的留给我，我何曾不是也想把最好的留给你
所以，我拒绝你给我的好。。。让你留给自己
你不明白我的用心，我不知如何解释。。。
所以结局总是争吵。
每一次闹得不愉快
到头来其实都是因为 我们太爱彼此。
原来，太爱彼此也是一种问题

看着你一跛跛地走 僵硬的双手
都还载着我 牵着我
坚持把你仅有的时间给我
尽全力也要换我一段笑容
你说，能不痛到心坑去吗？
你说，一个人的假日算什么？

一直都不觉得幸福
是因为不曾珍惜身边的那个人

♥ + ♥

sighs.
can you imagine how hot and stuffy is that if you're asked to wear the lab coat, sponge mask and apron hiding inside an unventilated lab which is equipped with heating apparatus whole day long and keep gluing, compressing, and heating, and waiting for the time.

erm, the most sarcastic aspect is that those who never working inside the lab will still want you to wear the lab coat and ask you to drink more water and also suggest you to go outside the lab which mean go to the fully-equipped-air-con office to ventilate yourself awhile when you're feeling suffocated. yet actually you'll never have the chance to do so as the manager is always staying outside the office whenever you want to escape from the hell in a moment.

the smell of heated plywood is really unbearable though it is as if the smell of biscuit whereas the body odor of the worker from indon is really... erm, so beyond description. sighs. and very sadly to say that, we're not encourage to sit down as the staff there keep indoctrinating us that sitting is a guilt. the manager might lesson you for sitting inside the lab without doing anything. sighs. seriously, we're suffering from severe legs pain.

hmp. and the fake course mate is really so disgusting. mood is spoiled every time her fakenesses appear. somehow i hope i can block her from msn. Weee... what a great suggestion. :))))

happy public holiday, pees

exhausted

today was supposed to be the 2nd day of internship, yet to me it was just my 1st day of training. the manager is much more younger than what i expected as i always thought manager is supposed to be older. he's really YOUNG la!! as young as you and me. he was the 1st one and also the only one who introduced himself to me though he was the last one who arrived the department this morning. right, without a colleague introduce themselves to me automatically. i don't know who they are and even no idea how to address them. but somehow i feel i must be very notorious to them because of the incident yesterday! argh! fortunately, i have a smart Maylin together with me! she told me everything included their names, their position.. and bla!!

well, the 1st thing i've learnt in the department is "Latihan Keselamatan & Kesihatan". the presentation was in BM! BM! BM! @.@'' keep yawning during the speech. while our supervisor is really nice and look nice too. :))) he explained the very basis information about plywood to us to give us a rough idea about how plywood is made. and the rest of time, Maylin and I are assigned to help a girl to test the plywood with different composition of glue. consequently, from 1000-12 and 1-5 pm, she and I were keep gluing, compressing, heating... in order to make few layers of verneers become a small piece of plywood using different type of glues and eventually send to somewhere else to cut into smaller pieces for soaking and bonding test. wooHoo, we did sweat alot too inside the laboratory. furthermore, both of us keep complaining too when our desperation are bubbled up. what to do, the work we did is kinda tedious and exhausting whereas these were the main factors to cause us creating mistakes during the progression. hahahaha....

one thing very funny is that during the lunch time, all the workers from different departments and factories are all walking on the pavements and using the zebra crossing when heading to the canteen. as if robots to me. xia soi once again, as i walked on the road until Maylin asked me to walk back to pavements. argh!!

the legs are really pain and eyes are really tired.
goodnight guys!

embarrassments

the 1st day of internship was very embarrassing.
i was the only one with unqualified hair color among the other trainees and was required to dye my hair to black color immediately.
good. i like the spirit of the company.
strict enough and nobody is excepted. this is the spirit for being an engineer. you never know what accident would be happened without obeying the strictness of the project that you're working on. yet, to be frank, i was so annoyed as i never anticipated i would spend money on blackening my hair at SALON!
apart from that, i missed the 1st day of internship.. missed everything that they've learnt today!! erm.. wondering what should i write on my 1st day of internship in the weekly training log? "... my hair color is rejected when i report for duty today. then i was free at home after i get my hair done ....?"
headache!!
so envy that every time i read others status at FB stating that their internship are kinda free. why ours aint? 2 times of meeting every week and present what you've learnt, to propose your ideas, to bring forward your problem... and at the end of the internship, yeah! present everything to the MANAGER!! you're totally wrong if you thought internship is all about shaking your legs at the office and receiving the allowance at the end of the month. argh! can't imagine how am i going to spend 3 months of internship and so to the rest of my career life.

sighs!

so stress la!!

GBM

衣服烫了又烫
鞋子试了又试
包包洗了又抹
闹钟调了又查
紧张还是紧张
啊！
对孰未谋面的同事、公司。。。
说不怕 有人会信吗？
保佑我
明天别睡迟啊！

保佑我

♥

):

sighs.
everyone is traveling now.
papa, mama, sis-in-law, sissss, little Felicia....
but what about me?
being a loner and staying at home alone to feel the loneliness.
a week seems so long for me now.
can't really imagine how am i going to spend a week time to being lonely at home.
sobs.
how strongly i wish i could be there with you guys.
how strongly i hope the internship was not start on this period.
how strongly i expect my international passport is not only for the customs of BRUNEI!!!

the mood was so spoiled this morning when they were off to airport.
the feeling was so hard...
especially when mama asked me what i wanna buy and she's going to buy for me.
especially when she told me to feed the chicks and to do other trivial things.
especially when papa reminded me to ensure the stoves are off before i go out, to feed the doggie, and lastly to dump the rubbish myself.
especially when little Felicia called me and asked whether i've cooked for myself.

when am watching drama, i feel lonely.
when am having meal, i feel lonely.
when am doing household chores, i feel lonely.
when am feeding the animals, i feel lonely.
i feel lonely whenever am home now...
yet, i still willing to stay at home instead of going out with frens.
why?
i just don't know why.

alone lonely loner

murmuring

and so, it's holiday. 3 months of holiday = 3 months of internship. time flies, year 3 of engineering course just over whereas year 09 is coming to the end. gonna start my very 1st internship in my life soon, very soon. the feeling of curiosity, nervousness, anxiousness, and frustration drown every little single cell of my body. of course, i do look forward to it too though i know that i will easily get tedious. it's really the time to face the real cruel social life and to adapt the life without spoon feeding. career, a brand new term in my life. :)))

bowling once again last night with favorite man and sis in order to kill the time while we were waiting for 2012. 3 of us played really bad this time. so so shame la!!!!! >.<

ahbao's turn

and the ChE 328: PIC... god, please bless me. i just want a 5. please don't let me to break the record for being the 1st one who fails PIC. i don't want to be notorious in curtin engineering department! argh! 9th of dec will be my doomsday. sad, am so sad... :(

argh!
WWT, i don't know what to do and how to do.

sighs.

random post

the best thing about tonight is that throwing all the lecture notes and tutorials and the textbook of PIC then having Japanese dinner with papa, mama, sisss, bro and sis-in-law, cousin and cousin-in-law, nephew and niece, felicia and little Luise and afterward, enjoying durian ice-cream and window shopping with family then lastly back home and blogging here.
yea...
gonna fail the last paper.
i just good for nothing. the brain is stupider than others whereas the laziness is stronger than others.
so speechless to myself. to my laziness. to my spirit of studying.
am fail to prepare, so now i am ready to fail.
:)))

so sorry for being such a useless people in my heart, the core of the heart.

cough...cough...cough...
it kills me especially at night.

*bounced ups and downs*

madly craving for such a long time and i always think that i would never ever have it again due to some personal reasons. yet, it just appeared in front of me in a spur of moment today. this was really so beyond my expectation... seriously, i could hardly find a better sentence or an adjective to describe my feeling when am holding it on my hands. it's JIM BRICKMAN!!! how wonderful! finally and eventually, i've got it! it's with me right now. yups!!! it's so near with me at this moment. it's no longer displaying at Popular bookstore with other companions. it now has an owner finally!!


i could not remember when did i begin to adore him. falling in love with his talent someday last year... the piano he used to play and the songs he sings just impress me deeply though am a music idiot... whereas my desktop has only 1 song of HIM!!! how sadly and this is the main reason cause me hardly resist it when i saw his album was displayed.

the only regret is that it's not given by favorite man.
favorite man arh favorite man......
don't you know that romance is the fuel that keeps love burning hot!!!
but love you still.
(:

always loving you

(:

our little prince, baby Luise...
he was suffering from jaundice when he was just few-week-old.
stayed at MCMC alone without mama beside him for three days long.
placed under the UV lamp nakedly whole day long
until his skin was peeled.
his mama was worried as the nurses were all busying chit-chatting
all the time.
they never noticed that the cloth to cover his eyes is loosen.
whereas our heart are so ached every time we visited him
especially his mama...

we've went ENOUGH hospital within this year!!!
say no to HOSPITAL!!!!!

and time flies...
gonna celebrating baby 1st month on this coming sat.
argh!
i can imagine how busy i can be.
as if how busy i was during little Felicia 1st month celebration.
my forever nightmare!!

yet, nothing is better than gathering with all family members
which are either from local or from other places.
this is the best benefit for organizing special occasions
though it's extremely tiring and still tiring!!!

to be frank, i can't really understand
why elders used to organize party as this in bygone days.
we've to prepare different and enough delicacies
and drinks for the guests, serving them
and lastly tidy up all the leftover and wash uncountable utensils
as well as clean up the living room, kitchen... until you wear out.
you can't imagine how destructive the kids of the guests can be!!!
while the most unbearable thing is that...
you cannot do anything to the naughty kids apart from
watching them destroying the sofa, the tables, the chairs, the floor,
and whatever things that can be destroyed happily.

also, i can't understand
why mummy do not murmurs as what she used to do
for preparing so much things from morning till the night!!!
....

i don't use to understand all these when am still a goon.
yet, now i know the reason why.
as all these just worth.

a night of gathering is so rare but precious.

family, always the top of priority

the last day of October.

time fades every single things.
it fades the rose.
it fades one's appearance.
it fades the love feeling between loving couple.
it fades the relationship between peoples.
it fades life.
it just fades anything which is able to be faded.

the feeling of suffering from observing all these fading
is really painful.

and eventually, it reaches the end of October.
how happy i am.
when the 2 major projects are submitted;
when the hectic week was over;
when year 3 sem 2 is nearly approached to the end;
when final exams are just around the corner
...

last but not least,
it's just so soon... that Ms. Chan is going to turn to her 21st.
welcome to be one of the member of 21st!!!

忙里偷闲

i think probably three of us are insane. we went out together during this peak season and most importantly, our assignments are still not complete yet. 2 big projects are going to due on coming Friday but in fact we have to make sure everything is done by Thurs. while the god damn quiz of ChE 302 is just around the corner. there is still lotsa lecture notes to memorize and also tutorials to revise. and the progress for control project was so deadly today... and i don't know why am i still blogging here instead of reading those not-understandable lecture notes.

yet, this was the very 1st time ever we went Starbuck to "study"... this is very common to many Uni students but this is so-called luxury for me. one night in Starbuck = lunch 7 times in Curtin's cafeteria.

and girls' outing will never ever lack of cam-whoring section... :)))

*herng was really cute here and both of us were so NOOB*

*while the security guard was observing us curiously*

*life's still good if you are able to fool around during hard time*

and it's time to burn the midnight oil!

life is definitely hard.
:(((

argh!

goodnight

bleeding

so many assignments.
so many projects.
so many tests.
and i do not know how to do.
and i do not have enough time to do.
and all the due date are just around the corner.

i just cant breath a sigh of relief.
extremely stress now.
the pressure presses me hardly every single moment.
extremely moody when it comes to FPP, WWT, RE, PI&C, and PLP
argh!
am so scared every night when i go bed.
am so frustrated every morning when i wake up.
all these feeling are just so beyond description...
sobs.

honey,
i need a hug.

瘾

也许
在伤害别人时，潜意识里的那种快感
让人上瘾
那种不能被明白的瘾
那种戒不掉的瘾

忙 盲 茫

五味杂陈的心情
但却
没时间 也没心情 去分享

但愿
生病的健康起来
健康的记得开心
开心的记得感恩

越来越不喜欢长大
长大
意味着 长辈们长老了
长老了 又意味着什么呢？

生命的循环 是可怕的
随着年龄的渐长
感到生命灰暗得越深

很忙
却不知道为什么还有时间浪费
很忙
却不知道为什么还能挥霍青春
很忙
却不知道为什么还能发呆
很忙
却不知道为什么还能追连续剧
很忙
却不知道为什么还能蹉跎岁月

但再忙，
生命再灰，
也不能忘记
欢迎小哲睿的加入
:)))))))

frustration kills me

you'll never know that ...
am looking at you
am thinking of you

the tears...
always convey what words
can ever say.

the only thing able to suppress every single negative feeling
is KALAMANSI
how nice if there had express delivery of it.
:)))
argh! i want it!

如果还有如果

如果可以回头
宁愿没有开始
如果记忆可以毁灭
宁愿一生空白

sighs

when
there's without a company wanna respond to my internship application,
i sighs.

when
there's more than one company accept my application,
i still sighs.

sighs.
still don't know how to reject the companies that i wanna reject using a better way.

what's the BETTER way?

sunday

pic received from Juliana this afternoon when am doing my pre-lab report.. he finally left the belly of his mama. the process of becoming a human being from a sperm and an ovum ain't easy at all. welcome to the world, little baby boy of Juliana & Dennis!! :))))

i can't remember how many times favorite man told me repeatedly within 24 hours about how great Juliana is. YES. i have the same opinion with him too. i'll definitely cry if it was me. lolx...

undeniable, mum is the greatest person in this world. nobody can understand the 10 months torment of pregnancy. nobody knows how much sacrifice to suffer from stature aliasing. nobody knows the feeling to adapt in the physical changes. only the mama herself knows how these feel. without sufficient courage, normal people just can't do it!!!

baby, if you knew all these... you should be more filial to your mama when you grow up...
hubby, if you understand all these... you should spend more time and care of your wify... please don't break their hearts. please don't let them to spend most of the time to wait for you.

am now so looking forward to the deliver of new family member. in weeks time. **wink** so excited. but am pretty sure i'll be very busy from that moment onwards....

had a very short trip to KB today. sushi once again... that's reason behind why mirian rather go KB for sushi instead of having it locally. i guess the price at KB and miri is nearly the same or even slightly higher. but why people still used to throw $$ to other country?? is that because the moon at foreign country is really BIGGER??? think about it.

:))))

so so so hungry now
>.< sob

中秋不快乐

在等待中心碎
在心碎中等待
选择逃避
是因为还等待着什么

其实我生气的是自己

快乐不快乐
终究是属于我们的第三个中秋

s o b

sob
how strongly i wanna go.
but I have no choice,
have to give up instead of going.
life's difficult.
sometimes you are forced to give up something you really eager...
in order to get the necessities of life.
this's life.

am not really happy during the pre-celebrate mid-autumn festival activity just now. the program was postponed due to the personnel turmoil inside the association. undeniable, rich people don't really care about money. what they care about is losing their face in front of public.

somehow i felt it's simply ridiculous.
it's just about the marriage notices on the NEWSPAPER.
if i were "the rich people", i would just post a full page of congratz notice using his OWN famous name instead of sharing a congratz notice with so MANY unrich people in his eyes!! why insulting yourself by showing all of us your black face?? it just lowered your status without other positive helps.

and we're not the one who owe you.

but he's RICH!! so everyone has to endure and accept of his temper. you can't deny, this's the advantage of being RICH!!
adulation. so sarcastic...
:))

and for the buffet... sorry but i have to say,
i felt very bad about that. mainly not because of the food.
i felt we were like begging for some food from "the people" who distributed the food. b e g.
i really dislike the attitude of old-woman. though i knew someday i'll be old too. i prefer the other corner of buffet. "the people" there seemed much more approachable and cordial. i swear, i said this not because "the people" who responsible to distribute the food are MALE. we're not jailed and we're already suffered from lotsa restriction nowadays. and now even attending a relaxing activity, we still can't be relaxed due to the old-woman-attitude. lol...

it should be a very warm celebration
but a little mouse droppings effected everything.

yet
thank you for serving us free dinner and entertaining us...
and still,
thanks!!!


p/s:
sorry to show my stingy,
my appreciation are excluding for those mouse droppings

来不及的晚餐

其实今天回到家并没有很开心
它，静悄悄的离开了
寂寞的离开
无论我如何呼唤
它，不再回应我
它，不再缠着我
它，不再吃我为它弄的晚餐了
一切都不再了。。。

也许下午的那一场雨
正是告诉我它默默的离开了
也许现在的这一场雨
正是告诉我它对主人的失望和悲伤

人，终究只会去懊悔
拥有时，没好好珍惜
却忽略了，现在拥有的
恶性重复循环。。。一直在懊悔

真得很开心
外出的几小时
那种悲伤真的不见了

但，
现实终究是现实
回到家
我依然很悲

它离开了，解脱了
却把所有的悲伤带给活着的
对不起 没能好好爱你

:'(

对不起

go forward

strong wind,
i can hear the dreadful sound when it hits the window...
as if how it cries for my sadness...

heavy rain,
i can sense how oppressive it is...
as if how it ruins everything...

rainy day is bad,
it sorts out all of the negative thoughts and feelings.

time to get back to reality,
to get back to the hectic life.
to get back to the life which belongs to me.
no matter how it is, it must be carried on.
:))


goodbye,
the LAST holiday.

面目全非

日子很平淡
心情很枯燥
烦恼特别多
头脑特别钝

。。。

Together you & me

There are no words that could ever tell you
how much I truly love you...

Now and always
you are my love, my strength, and my courage...
till the end of time...

You know,
I'm the luckiest person in the world
to have your heart as you have mine...

Thank you, Honey!!!
for standing beside me
through good times and bad times..

Always loving you

无题

新加坡人的电影
就是连恐怖片都要穿插人生道理
吓到笑 一部即恐怖 又好笑的电影
与一般恐怖片不同的是
恐怖的背后有笑点 有意思
你根本无法想象 戏院内呐喊后 哄堂大笑的情景
这就是为什么新加坡电影卖座的原因

...

holiday tone

still in holiday mood.
slacking. shopping. eating. resting...
i done all sort of things, unless dating.
*sob*
is entirely in a sluggish mode recently.
holiday is just extremely good.
:))))

've gained lotsa weight.
high calories are absorbed every single meal.
ample and abundant breakfast every morning
as well as sumptuous dinner every night.
feel like puking when i think about food now.
but i still eat alot when it's time to eat. lolx
thanks to the visit of my cuzzie.
without her, without all sorts of delicacies inside my tummy
:))))

yet, the pain of gastric comes to torture me every night after dinner.
how sadly. how hateful gastric is!!
the painfulness is so unbearable and terribly suffering..
lastly, i invented a new way to get rid of gastric...
dang dang dang dang...
a glass of lemon juice is able to neutralize the acid inside the stomach.
:)))))

had a hair cut again today.
to cut off the bushes on my hair.
i'm desperately frustrated by the bushes since such a long time ago.
i just couldn't wait to go to saloon and get my hair done.
and finally today ...
:))))

whEeeEEeee....

i'm broke but i enjoy alot.
:)))

heart heart him

random entry

周围的人总在 突显手机很安静
安静得很自然
自然得很习惯
习惯得很理所当然
其实也没什么大不了
:)

little ahnong with the little horse display at boulevard restaurant

the rm20 cash voucher of Delifrance was spent on this - seafood platter

and this - mango cheese + tiramisu + Oreo cheese

cuzzie. *so fat me sob sob sob*

and now you know the reason why people used to say i'm the older one. wth!!

life's still good after all.

思念中

i can't bear not to see my little naughty niece recently...
i can't bear not to hear her voice...
i can't bear not to suffer from her loso-ness...
i can't bear not to receive her goodnight kiss every night before she sleeps...
i can't bear not to hug her...
i can't bear not to listen every song she sings...
i can't bear every single moment without her at home.
i just can't bear the silent of this house because of the absence of her.

if not for her,
there's without laughter,
without joys...

ish, cepat balik rumah la!!!
i've killed all the mosquitoes already!!!!
:)))

想念中。
思念中。

天佑我，
考试顺利！！

random entry

feel like going to BOOM my hair recently.

hence, i shared my thought with favorite man last night during our dinner + supper at the new renovated airy cafe.

he stopped his meal and stared back at me seriously at that moment.

"i think it's better to tell me that when would you like to get it straight again after you BOOM your hair"

"..."

"Oh, i anticipated that you would get bored of it during coming Nov and tell me that you need a straight. then during CNY, you will tell me that you need a perm again. then again, straight and perm and straight and perm..."

"..."

so frustrated...

so craved for the mango puree snow ice .. :'(

what a slacker i'm
duh, go revise control la!!!
*slap*slap*slap*

还有我

還有我
詞：黃明志 曲：張捷惟 / 蘇俊元

去年夏天不寂寞 你的歡笑陪著我- 光良
乘著風聽你 編織著夢 - 張棟樑
徜徉在一片豐收 - 易桀齊

當雨不再浪漫害羞 當風不再輕輕送 - 張智成
藍藍的天又 深鎖眉頭 - 方炯賓
你害怕 你惶恐 不知所措 - 張棟樑

朋友別再哭了 就算世界變化再多 - 光良
還有我 在身後 奮不顧身的挽救 - 林宇中
朋友你還有我 在為你默默的加油 - 龔柯允

抓著我 的雙手 如果你還在顫抖 - 林建輝
天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走 - 張棟樑

當雨不再浪漫害羞 當風不再輕輕送 - 光良
藍藍的天又 深鎖眉頭- 張棟樑
你害怕 你惶恐 不知所措 - 張智成

朋友別再哭了 就算世界變化再多 - 方炯賓
還有我 在身後 奮不顧身的挽救 - 林建輝
朋友你還有我 在為你默默的加油 - 易桀齊
抓著我 的雙手 如果你還在顫抖- 林宇中
天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走 - 方炯賓+ 龔柯允 (Karen)

彩虹躲在山的那頭 光線就在雲的背後 - 張棟樑
我在雨中 陪你守候 - 林宇中
包紮了今天的傷痛 擦乾眼淚勇敢振作- 光良
明年夏天 有你有我 - 龔柯允+張棟樑

朋友別再哭了 就算世界變化再多 - 光良
還有我 在身後 奮不顧身的挽救-合唱
朋友你還有我 在為你默默的加油-合唱

抓著我 的雙手 如果你還在顫抖-合唱
天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走 -合唱

天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走- 光良

it's FRIDAY again!!!

n weeks ago, the experiment of distillation was terminated due to the blackout in the campus.
n weeks later, again, the experiment of distillation for group B4 was terminated due to the broke down of pumping system around the distillation column.
how sadly. how desperate. we just so lack of fate with distillation.... we just so lack of some lady luck to complete the experiment.
how poor we are.
:(

yesterday 8 hours extraction lab + today 3 hours FAILED distillation lab replacement... am so sick every time i think about the unit of Process Laboratory Project. am so scared every time it comes to Thursday.... and mood is terribly bad if replacement lab is needed!!!!
stacking at the lab with no air-conditioner provided for 4 hours or more than that...
plus wearing a thick lab coat....
plus wearing long pant...
plus wearing closed-toes shoes....
plus wearing mask if the odor of the chemical is horrible...
plus blurring inside the lab...
plus fooling around by the so weak equipments provided inside the lab or the shortage of chemical solutions which are needed for carrying on the experiment...
...
sighs.

if we knew the correct ways to undergo each experiment..
why are we still paying so high amount of tuition fee for the Uni every semester??? yea, i know that we should try out ourselves. we ain't kindergarten student anymore. but how many set of equipments and how much storage of chemicals are provided for US to try.

once we failed, yea.. the next group suffers.

yupss.. i just wanna blow off to release my unsatisfactory!!
ish!!!!!!!!!!!

穷人
就是连吩咐工人做分内的事情
都要觉得内疚

wednesday

090909

special day for many couples and also for ms. Yeo and her beloved one.

4 years. aint easy at all.

and it's simply touching to view those engagement photos from fb. so many seniors from peimin were engaged on this special day. congratzZz.

marriage touches me because it's one of the hardest thing in the world for me. two persons from different family and different background become a family and stay under the same roof. it's not only about love. but life. reality. differences. this really need lotsa courage but not temporary impulsion!!! :))))) people used to say i would be the fastest one to get married. but too bad, i really so scared of marriage.... as if an investment without guarantee. lolx

for me, today was just an ordinary day. nothing was special as today wasn't my ENGAGEMENT day nor ANNIVERSARY day bah!! lolx...

yet, i got rm20 vouchers as i won during the so-lame-ice-cream-game that organized by Delifrance, Curtin. i don't mean to win this game actually but another 5 pretties were reluctant to win bah. that's why i have to ruin my imagine in front of the public to squeeze one cone of ice-cream inside my mouth and SHOUT a slogon for Delifrance. " delifrance, always my 1st choice". feel like vomiting when i thinking about the slogon i shouted just now. so paiseh leh!!!!

process instrumentation & control.
tell me how can i conquer you?

signing off.
goodnight

我要快乐

原来
当狮子失去自信时
就像行尸走肉般
没有灵魂的生命
也许 外表依然没什大碍
但其实内心真的生病了
真的病得不轻
那种压迫感是前所未有的

一直在寻找依赖
一直在自欺欺人
我恨我拒绝独立
我恨我无能为力
我恨我 自己

挣扎 矛盾 忧闷 悲观 自卑 失望 。。。
所有所有负面的情绪
其实 也只有自己可以解决
心魔不被战胜
永远永远也只能
被它 折磨
被它 绊倒

我看到我的问题
我看到我的懦弱
我看到我自己
我很累
我很烦
我很辛苦
但 我很努力地去寻找自救的方法

我很想
找回我的自信 找回我的目标 找回我的未来 找回我的灵魂
找回原本属于我的一切

找回我的快乐
我想要的快乐

那会是何时呢？

保佑我

his bird's day

yea...
GUNA!!
happie birthday

he's going to treat me SS very SOON!!
:))))

原来
最多埋怨的
最常不知足的
事实上却是最幸福的

因为只有沉溺在幸福中的
才会知道什么是 不满足
才会想要去埋怨

内疚我的任性
感激你的迁就

wanna wanna watch this la!!!!!!

another brand new week again.
presentation.
assignment.
tests.

i will be hardworking
as if how hard you work everyday

people used to ask me what i actually like about you
you don't have body
you don't have money
you don't have outward
you don't have successful business
you are just empty with a big tummy.

i stared blankly every time people ask me this
yet,
now i know the reason why.

:)))

哼！！！！

我无法体谅
我无法谅解
我无法原谅
我无法接受
我不能。。。我不能。。。我不能
重复说了三次 就证明我真的是不能

可悲的是
你在另一头 既然
感激我的体谅 我的谅解 我的接受。。。。
你是真的不懂 还是在假装不懂

#@$%#%$^*

你真的以为我是神吗？
你真的以为你的魅力有那么强哦！！！
你真的以为你不会输给时间的稀释！！！
醒醒吧！！！
哼！哼！哼！！！
哼了三次，就表示我是真的在哼你！！！

男人vs女人

>.<

真是丢脸丢到家
快掘个洞给我。。
我要把头塞进去
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

忘了说对不起

ramblings

frustration pours over every single cell of my body
am feeling the frustration and desperation deeply, truly, and madly
it nearly drowns me... it nearly suffocates me.
as if the quiz i took at fb, am a noob when it comes to studies.
the idiot who received zero mark in exams
it's amazingly accurate, don't you think so???

Engineering is simply unreachable for me!!! UNREACHABLE!!!
am not belonging to engineering field but what should i do...
i've loaned 80k for the course which is not suitable for me.
how am i going to pay all these debt???
stupid... idiot... noob
:((

and there's without a company willing to bestow me a CHANCE to get internship at my HOMETOWN.
is that desperate enough or not??? JUDGE it!!!
their eyes are all sticking with the stool of bull.. that's why they can't see me.
that's fine!!!
bintulu, HERE i come!!! bintulu's rich mEn & engtao GUYS, I'M COMING!!!
uh uh... shake shake~~~

sighs.
i'm still down
Kalamansi, donuts, cheesy wedges, nougat, choc. ...
& whatever fattening snacks...
Please do cheer me up...
i just need something to light up my life.

hi, September
Grey Stept

你到底懂不懂
我只要一点温热的触碰

你到底懂不懂
有些话并不是一定要说

你到底懂不懂
我只要一个安稳的等候

你到底懂不懂
想你想得好像空气都停了

你总是漫不在乎 当我看着自己的稀薄

如果我能够继续等待
如果时间能够停留下来
如果……没有如果？

it's..

Lamborghini

weEhee~~



this was taken last year in front of hotel at Genting Highland
during our kl trip, April
.the orange color one.

and tonight...

...~woOhOoooO~...
favorite man "bought" this for me
lolx (in my dream)

went back home before 12.
no countdown as the
activities organized in front of al fresco were kinda bored.
nice songs are played though.
and a small small girl was dancing on the stage happily
with the dancers and was reluctant to leave the stage
no matter how hard her dad persuaded her.

so fun. so much laughter.
and so many big BOOBS to kap!!
lolx

sat night

BBQ just now with family and bro's pig dog friends

lotsa chicken wing... lotsa prawn... lotsa seafood... lotsa Pork... lotsa coconuts... and bla...

kinda bored though.

just eating and drinking and slacking and bluffing and feeding mosquitoes with some blood for their dinner..

no handsome guys

and still, no engtao guys to KAP

that's why SO BORED.

lolx

and it's weekend which meaning that week free is gonna end soon.

very SOON. guilty to say that my week free is kinda FREE.

spent one day to do FPP.. then the rest of time i just slack till the max.

yea. the consequence of over slacking is to receive a doom life afterward.

and let's prepare well to say...

goodbye Aug.

+

selamat hari jadi - Malaysia.

+

hi, Sept babe...

+

hi assignments!! hi midterms!!! hi.. DOOM life!

yea, i knew i am a big noob.

is currently trying hard to learn HOW to
accept what i've been destined
:)
and i hate the feeling of suffering from insomnia! darn
so sickening
:(

my metabolic age is 29...
:'(
my body fat is exceeding...
:'(

i'm so old

argh!!!

whew whew

went for dinner outside just now in order to pre-celebrate superwoman's birthday and it was super heavy downpour while the wind was particularly strong as the restaurant is located somewhere near river / sea.

the 1st time having dinner with some rain splashed on my body... yups, my back was half wet but favorite man was more unfortunately... his whole back was wet. however, there is without a murmur from us as this dinner was kinda satisfied and my tummy was nearly exploded by all the nice and delicious delicacies. nothing is better than celebrating special day of your beloved one together with your next of kin. i just simply love the feeling of being together with my family and i knew that everything would be perfect if eldest sis was with us just now.... hahaha... though she will be back in two days time.

being together with favorite man for 2.6+ years and this was the FIRST time he hold me an UMBRELLA under heavy rain!!! possibly the frequency to hold an umbrella for him is too little and that's why i get wet once again!! hng, even my dad isn't willing to put my feet wet by the rain la!!! hahahahaha

dad's . . . once upon a time

fruity cake, mum's favorite

well during the cake cutting time, our little naughty felicia has lead all of us to sing the happy birthday song... she's only 2+ but she now can sing a complete birthday song without any assistance from anyone of us!! recalling back to dad's birthday on March, she's still not able to sing birthday song completely. but now she CAN!!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you 奶奶~~
:))))

she's improving day by day... and is becoming naughtier and naughtier...

and fatter and FATTER.... !!! heart my favorite cute little niece!!! and i know there's one question in your mind now, why only cake pics are posted instead of other pics of the celebration?? yer, i just don't know why the photography skill of my sis can be as lousy as this de lo... all pics are blur until beyond description.

and the power supply of campus was breakdown on late morning when we were having experiments in the lab!! and Ms. Fam was in bad mood... her frustration and irritation were all wrote on her face. her expression was trying to tell me that.. DONT COME NEAR ME OR ELSE YOU'LL BE BITE. lolx~ the blackout was meaning that the lab was not able to continue and we have no choice but to REDO!!! wth, it's not 4 mins... but 4 hours la!!!! i hate replacement class and why Mr. Agus still haven't post the date and time for replacement yet leh!!! ish!! ish!!! ish!!! enough muttering

and now let's pray for me to get an internship position at MIRI...

:)))))))