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sighs.
everyone is traveling now.
papa, mama, sis-in-law, sissss, little Felicia....
but what about me?
being a loner and staying at home alone to feel the loneliness.
a week seems so long for me now.
can't really imagine how am i going to spend a week time to being lonely at home.
sobs.
how strongly i wish i could be there with you guys.
how strongly i hope the internship was not start on this period.
how strongly i expect my international passport is not only for the customs of BRUNEI!!!

the mood was so spoiled this morning when they were off to airport.
the feeling was so hard...
especially when mama asked me what i wanna buy and she's going to buy for me.
especially when she told me to feed the chicks and to do other trivial things.
especially when papa reminded me to ensure the stoves are off before i go out, to feed the doggie, and lastly to dump the rubbish myself.
especially when little Felicia called me and asked whether i've cooked for myself.

when am watching drama, i feel lonely.
when am having meal, i feel lonely.
when am doing household chores, i feel lonely.
when am feeding the animals, i feel lonely.
i feel lonely whenever am home now...
yet, i still willing to stay at home instead of going out with frens.
why?
i just don't know why.

alone lonely loner