wake up and face the truth beybee

alright, i'll definitely finish resume, cover letter, and whatsoever shits that need to be used for applying jobs as an engineer by tomorrow. no more delay. no more excuse. no more laziness. no more procrastination, no more rice worm, no more .... =)

get ready for interview, get ready for working, yea.. i wanna work outside MIRI weyyyy...!! god bless me ..

...

he said he felt touched to receive McD dinner from me. to be frank, i'm pretty sad to hear about this. throughout these years, what have i actually done for you? nothing. nothing. not even a single little thing i can recall from my mind. is thinking how am i going to celebrate anniversary with you. but i've no idea totally. sighs. everything will be easier if i were a boy....

just ignore me.

blahhh... night!

=)

hmp, it has been so many years since i last straighten my hair. more than 4 years i think. and so, today i went saloon and got my hair done. unfortunately, i keep telling myself that i'll not try to do this once again during these processes. com'on, it was like living in bloody hell every second. so pain. and still pain. body pain. legs pain. hands pain. head pain. hair pain. why, why, why, why we must suffer so much before get everything done! darn. well, i got a very funny fringe again. please grow longer faster wey.....

yet, 've got piona structure in black as Christmas gift. specially thanks to my beloved Santa bf. LOLLL~

the last week of 2010.. hmmm...

can somebody tell me when do i apply for Schlumberger. or somebody help me to APPLY? received an email from the recruiting team 莫名其妙-ly and be told that i was not employed. so curious. never apply any company yet. and Schlumberger rejected me already. damn!

=.=

戒不了

下雨天 离开的这一天
一个人 大步走在购物中心
很软弱 却故作坚强
越是没自信 越是装得很自信
没心情 却假装投入看着旅行用品
才明白 会冷的地方 都是有钱人的玩意儿

附在窗外的雨珠 都是累积的思念
一口口的吸进最爱的 ice-blended chocolate cream chip
一边翻阅了两本杂志
我想 路过的陌生人 都用很异样的眼光观察这个怪怪的女生
没理会加注在身上的任何意见和评语
很冷 很冷 只想一个人 一个人
好好地喝完最爱的 guilty pleasure
那个我想念的 guilty pleasure
倪是我的唯一 但我却不能成为倪的唯一

会努力喝完十二杯 累计十二个印章
兑换本子 然后 我会忘记倪
忘记倪的味道 忘记倪的甜味 忘记倪给的一切
开玩笑，

我一点都不想戒掉倪

omg, love my pinky lenses
:p

不相信 这都是命运的安排
只相信 命运要玩残我
明明是个6 却看出个9
明明是双6双8 却看出三个6一个8
就算斗不过命运 我也不会认输的
等着瞧吧！

:D

很多年前 还记得 望着姐姐们挂在墙上的毕业照 心里一直在想 我会不会是哪个最没出息的 就是读了大学却没本事毕业的那个。真的，我都很佩服哥哥姐姐们。哥哥虽然不读大学，至少创出自己的事业，供车供店供房子，姐姐们毕业了，都没我懦弱，自己赚钱，然后偶尔救济我下。

原来现在我真的毕业了。成绩虽然中下，但也还是毕业了。哈哈哈哈哈。很快我的毕业照就要挂上了哦~~ 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

还有，真的要谢谢我最笨的男朋友。他很笨 我喜欢 :D

说着说着
我们都哭了
:')

老板，明天可以不上班吗？

没有流掉几公升眼泪
所以还是一样没有瘦

本来还要哈拉的
可是一边写一边聊天
聊天多过写写写
聊完了 也忘了要写什么


晚安

sobs
my eyes

=)

seriously, i wanna work offshore.
not all because of the high pay.
i just want try something which i never try before.
=)
they said i'll regret. they said it's difficult. they said all bad things about offshore.
i don't care. at least let me try once.
:)

but which company is going to hire me?
halliburton?
schlumberger?

nah....
they're famous and well-established companies.
i'm just... nothing

星期三

越刻意想忘记
越是忘不掉

没有很刻意
只是很想要
所以忘不了
哈哈哈哈哈

好啦
我一点都不想忘记
那些都是
很好的回忆
很好的经验

我很开心
我很好

只是原来每天见面很腻
真的见到想吐血了
也许我们都是向往自由的两个人
没什么
我只是无聊透了

原来当花瓶
也是一种很辛苦的工作

不要再说花瓶 是没用的！！

=)

终有一天
会习惯
=)

依然是optimist啦~~~

忽然伤心了两秒
没什么
只是我太傻
没什么
只是喜欢傻

没什么
以后不会傻了啦~~~

:D