bye FEB!

刚在庙口看见很多讨钱的
大节日 讨钱的特别多
害怕看见那种情景 却喜欢观察他们
是老的呢？是残的呢？抑或是瞎的？
低头望了望 很心痛
婴孩应该与哲睿一样大了吧！
圆圆的眼睛 很可爱
躺在母亲的怀里 吸着乌烟瘴气
那么小却成了大人们赚取一点利润的用具
他们没有错 却注定生长在如此糟糕的情况下。。。
也许是我太悲哀了 但 没有能力
又何苦让小孩受罪
为何不阻止悲剧重复发生

不幸的人 真得太多了

失去了西洋情人节
幸好还有中国情人节
没有特别的庆祝
只是陪了两家人一起吃饭 看戏 闲聊
然后
回家烦恼开学。。
买了个腰带给大肥 真得很担心
再不瘦下来 明年真得买不到东西给大肥了
哈哈哈。。。
大肥！

hi!
brand new semester & brand new month!!

->.<-

the timetable for new semester is disappointing. Monday - Friday. sighs. and it seems there are uncountable presentations wait for me. 6 units ain't easy at all. how am i able to manage my time wisely? and the final year research project is head-aching. sighs. reactor designs. am i able to design a reactor that fulfill all the requirements and to construct a modeling? i can't even access to the main references that used for the research proposal. and MATHLAB, how many percentage of the skills that are still remained in my brain? so to the HYSYS software, the god damn control station program... sighs. final year as if practicing myself to be a real engineer.

i feel powerless and scary every time i think about how hard and difficult that i've tried to cope with all the assignments, projects, tests... that needed to be suffered in bygone semesters. yet, what i scare the most now is that the life after graduate...

by that time, am no longer someone without burdens.

pray for myself.
:)

when it's coming to the end

a low productivity month.

:)
♥ ♥

random

another week to go..
then will be the commencement of new semester.
hey!
it's the 4th year of degree study.

gonna back to the school ...
to face the SHIT FACE of admin staffsSs.
seriously i don't know the reason why
majority of admin staffs from any places/companies
used to give people a feel of arrogant.
ok, it isn't a feeling. but FACT!!!
am not supposed to be the one to suffer your god damn face
if you're unhappy with your works.

start to think about my career recently.
am thinking what should i do after graduate.
and am i able to graduate successfully?

sighs.
my life will be fulfilled with SIGHS again once the study life begins.
fact is always cruel.
life is always hard.

= 失眠 =

遇见了很久很久没见面的陌生人
不敢正视 还急着想找个洞把头往里塞
不自信 又开始来烦我
真的很讨厌这样的自己

回想 往事真的很可笑
幼稚 幼稚 还是幼稚
但如果没有当初的年少无知
哪来今天的我啊！

很失落
毕竟 我找不到值得开心的理由
一直不满足，因为一直想要得更多

一直以来 都灌输自己别去爱一个人
因为 那是辛苦的 那是煎熬的
看着身边的人都为爱憔悴
不可怕吗？
与其身陷苦中 倒不如当个被爱的
那是自私的 但那却也是唯一能避免受伤的
所以宁可一直都习惯享受被爱

讨厌现在的自己
因为背弃了原本的信念
我在痛苦中，我在害怕中
那是因为享受被爱太久了
很荒缪
既然情愿厮守着一棵。。。
又矮又肥又臭又丑又没钱又秃头的椰树
但却享受在其中
我明白 这 --- 真的很变态

期待星期六的来临
我清楚这不是因为寂寞而想念
因为这些日子一点都不算寂寞
只是少了暖暖又紧紧的拥抱
与身上的味道
吵架 斗嘴 冷战
还有那些从来都不被珍惜的叮咛
突如其来的失落感 和不真实感

我乱了 我慌了 我迷失了

戒不掉的瘾 ~ 解不清的毒

=>.<=

过年最开心的事
莫过于赢了很多

:)

目前最幸福的事
莫过于遇见了你

:)

睡眠很少
精神很多

好忙好忙
忙着拜年
忙着吃喝
忙着收压岁钱
忙着犯法
忙着追剧

其实，也

。。。忙着挂念。。。

suffered alot because of this eyes-lashes-extension!
i don't like them at all.
they ruined my eyes.
and they caused inconvenience to me.
so regret.
ish. when could i get rid of regrets?

:(

碎碎念

终于
等待已久的时光来临了
别了 那痛苦的经验
别了 那些值得我怀念的朋友们
别了 那个死八婆妖精行政人员
别了 那个搞不懂的奇怪人
别了 又爱又恨的经理先生 。。。
一切都结束了

三个月 有点不舍
但 不多 就一点点
毕竟 我是有血有肉的人
:)))))
以肯德鸡当宵夜来欢庆脱离苦海
没有很满足
就后悔 啊！！
人生，总是徘徊在后悔中~~

游览着面子书的照片
有结婚的 有生孩子的
有钱 结婚就是一种幸福
生孩子 无论如何都有莫名的感动
真的好羡慕那些有勇气的人们

唔~
好忙好忙

♥ sunday ♥

went Lorenzo just now to hunt furniture for CNY. the white luxurious sofa with diamonds displayed at the entrance was attractive enough!! but the price was killing me softly - 61 k+. i think i would not willing to put my butt on the 61 k sofa even if i had a chance to owe it one day. btw, i was deeply in love with this bed thoroughly. deeply fell in love on it at 1st sight. i want it i want it i really want it ...


but i don't have 14 k+. :'(
somehow i hate Leo characteristic very much. Leos are easily indulged in branded stuff even if they ain't useful at all. i hate myself for being materialistic; hate myself for being a brand freak. while i was disgusted with myself for being unsatisfactory. it's torturing for being all these bad habits when u ain't capable at all.

but these motivate me to work hard. to earn hard.
so that i could get what i want.
:)
looking forward to the day.

3 days until the end of the god damn life.
:D

miracle happened!!

just came back from cinema.
satisfied enough. i can't imagine how long i did not watch movie on wed. night. all because of the internship weekly meeting.
but frankly, watching movie with friends is really not fun at all. especially for horror movie! gosh! i can't get somebody to hug when the scary scene was shown!!!
and today i was deeply fall in love on the manager that i used to hate him in bygone days. he set us free from presentation about the equipment that he wanted us to research on. i really no ideas with the equipment. thanks for understanding our situation and let us off. in the meantime, he approved my 3 days of CNY leaveSss!!!! how kind-hearted he is!!!!


weEeeEe... there really can be miracle, when u believe!!!!!