the last day of October.

time fades every single things.
it fades the rose.
it fades one's appearance.
it fades the love feeling between loving couple.
it fades the relationship between peoples.
it fades life.
it just fades anything which is able to be faded.

the feeling of suffering from observing all these fading
is really painful.

and eventually, it reaches the end of October.
how happy i am.
when the 2 major projects are submitted;
when the hectic week was over;
when year 3 sem 2 is nearly approached to the end;
when final exams are just around the corner
...

last but not least,
it's just so soon... that Ms. Chan is going to turn to her 21st.
welcome to be one of the member of 21st!!!

忙里偷闲

i think probably three of us are insane. we went out together during this peak season and most importantly, our assignments are still not complete yet. 2 big projects are going to due on coming Friday but in fact we have to make sure everything is done by Thurs. while the god damn quiz of ChE 302 is just around the corner. there is still lotsa lecture notes to memorize and also tutorials to revise. and the progress for control project was so deadly today... and i don't know why am i still blogging here instead of reading those not-understandable lecture notes.

yet, this was the very 1st time ever we went Starbuck to "study"... this is very common to many Uni students but this is so-called luxury for me. one night in Starbuck = lunch 7 times in Curtin's cafeteria.

and girls' outing will never ever lack of cam-whoring section... :)))

*herng was really cute here and both of us were so NOOB*

*while the security guard was observing us curiously*

*life's still good if you are able to fool around during hard time*

and it's time to burn the midnight oil!

life is definitely hard.
:(((

argh!

goodnight

bleeding

so many assignments.
so many projects.
so many tests.
and i do not know how to do.
and i do not have enough time to do.
and all the due date are just around the corner.

i just cant breath a sigh of relief.
extremely stress now.
the pressure presses me hardly every single moment.
extremely moody when it comes to FPP, WWT, RE, PI&C, and PLP
argh!
am so scared every night when i go bed.
am so frustrated every morning when i wake up.
all these feeling are just so beyond description...
sobs.

honey,
i need a hug.

瘾

也许
在伤害别人时，潜意识里的那种快感
让人上瘾
那种不能被明白的瘾
那种戒不掉的瘾

忙 盲 茫

五味杂陈的心情
但却
没时间 也没心情 去分享

但愿
生病的健康起来
健康的记得开心
开心的记得感恩

越来越不喜欢长大
长大
意味着 长辈们长老了
长老了 又意味着什么呢？

生命的循环 是可怕的
随着年龄的渐长
感到生命灰暗得越深

很忙
却不知道为什么还有时间浪费
很忙
却不知道为什么还能挥霍青春
很忙
却不知道为什么还能发呆
很忙
却不知道为什么还能追连续剧
很忙
却不知道为什么还能蹉跎岁月

但再忙，
生命再灰，
也不能忘记
欢迎小哲睿的加入
:)))))))

frustration kills me

you'll never know that ...
am looking at you
am thinking of you

the tears...
always convey what words
can ever say.

the only thing able to suppress every single negative feeling
is KALAMANSI
how nice if there had express delivery of it.
:)))
argh! i want it!

如果还有如果

如果可以回头
宁愿没有开始
如果记忆可以毁灭
宁愿一生空白

sighs

when
there's without a company wanna respond to my internship application,
i sighs.

when
there's more than one company accept my application,
i still sighs.

sighs.
still don't know how to reject the companies that i wanna reject using a better way.

what's the BETTER way?

sunday

pic received from Juliana this afternoon when am doing my pre-lab report.. he finally left the belly of his mama. the process of becoming a human being from a sperm and an ovum ain't easy at all. welcome to the world, little baby boy of Juliana & Dennis!! :))))

i can't remember how many times favorite man told me repeatedly within 24 hours about how great Juliana is. YES. i have the same opinion with him too. i'll definitely cry if it was me. lolx...

undeniable, mum is the greatest person in this world. nobody can understand the 10 months torment of pregnancy. nobody knows how much sacrifice to suffer from stature aliasing. nobody knows the feeling to adapt in the physical changes. only the mama herself knows how these feel. without sufficient courage, normal people just can't do it!!!

baby, if you knew all these... you should be more filial to your mama when you grow up...
hubby, if you understand all these... you should spend more time and care of your wify... please don't break their hearts. please don't let them to spend most of the time to wait for you.

am now so looking forward to the deliver of new family member. in weeks time. **wink** so excited. but am pretty sure i'll be very busy from that moment onwards....

had a very short trip to KB today. sushi once again... that's reason behind why mirian rather go KB for sushi instead of having it locally. i guess the price at KB and miri is nearly the same or even slightly higher. but why people still used to throw $$ to other country?? is that because the moon at foreign country is really BIGGER??? think about it.

:))))

so so so hungry now
>.< sob

中秋不快乐

在等待中心碎
在心碎中等待
选择逃避
是因为还等待着什么

其实我生气的是自己

快乐不快乐
终究是属于我们的第三个中秋

s o b

sob
how strongly i wanna go.
but I have no choice,
have to give up instead of going.
life's difficult.
sometimes you are forced to give up something you really eager...
in order to get the necessities of life.
this's life.

am not really happy during the pre-celebrate mid-autumn festival activity just now. the program was postponed due to the personnel turmoil inside the association. undeniable, rich people don't really care about money. what they care about is losing their face in front of public.

somehow i felt it's simply ridiculous.
it's just about the marriage notices on the NEWSPAPER.
if i were "the rich people", i would just post a full page of congratz notice using his OWN famous name instead of sharing a congratz notice with so MANY unrich people in his eyes!! why insulting yourself by showing all of us your black face?? it just lowered your status without other positive helps.

and we're not the one who owe you.

but he's RICH!! so everyone has to endure and accept of his temper. you can't deny, this's the advantage of being RICH!!
adulation. so sarcastic...
:))

and for the buffet... sorry but i have to say,
i felt very bad about that. mainly not because of the food.
i felt we were like begging for some food from "the people" who distributed the food. b e g.
i really dislike the attitude of old-woman. though i knew someday i'll be old too. i prefer the other corner of buffet. "the people" there seemed much more approachable and cordial. i swear, i said this not because "the people" who responsible to distribute the food are MALE. we're not jailed and we're already suffered from lotsa restriction nowadays. and now even attending a relaxing activity, we still can't be relaxed due to the old-woman-attitude. lol...

it should be a very warm celebration
but a little mouse droppings effected everything.

yet
thank you for serving us free dinner and entertaining us...
and still,
thanks!!!


p/s:
sorry to show my stingy,
my appreciation are excluding for those mouse droppings

来不及的晚餐

其实今天回到家并没有很开心
它，静悄悄的离开了
寂寞的离开
无论我如何呼唤
它，不再回应我
它，不再缠着我
它，不再吃我为它弄的晚餐了
一切都不再了。。。

也许下午的那一场雨
正是告诉我它默默的离开了
也许现在的这一场雨
正是告诉我它对主人的失望和悲伤

人，终究只会去懊悔
拥有时，没好好珍惜
却忽略了，现在拥有的
恶性重复循环。。。一直在懊悔

真得很开心
外出的几小时
那种悲伤真的不见了

但，
现实终究是现实
回到家
我依然很悲

它离开了，解脱了
却把所有的悲伤带给活着的
对不起 没能好好爱你

:'(

对不起