hey, feb!!!

sorry for being so fierce.
but bye bye my.... ermm.. duno what hair
i got a very messy hair right now.
:)))))

internship,
one week + to go.
my last day will be on 10 feb.
:)
pray for me,
for getting the leave that approved by the manager.
am really tired of working in such company and being supervised by such expert.
i got nothing there,
but my eyes are infected while my hands are allergic-ed.
and... the PERVERT! :(

god bless me.

明知道爱情经不起考验
却偏要去考验
明知道自己输不起
却硬要对自己抛下赌注
明知道一切都不一样了
却依然想要证明一如往常

无法仿佛以往般潇洒
无法如往常般不在乎

假装硬朗
伪装所有负面的情感
一次次地伤害你
我 痛恻心扉 我 心如刀割
自私 自私
用伤害来证明所有想要的答案

其实 即使赢了你
我依然输给了自己

爱上了你
我输得彻底

:)

u know & i know...

thank you

:)

人性
应该是没有一个人会读懂的东西
人类
应该是属于最复杂的动物
人格
应该是最可怕的事情

我不懂
为何当你不再计较的时候
反而会一直不断被别人计较

满足 不是你得到的有多少 而是你计较得少
不是吗？

很绝望。。很低落。。。
很累。。。 很累
我不想上班。。。
不想每天伪装我有多忙。。。
不想面对那些我不想见的人。。。
不想每天被压力压得透不过气
不想失去兴趣。。不想堕落。。。

不想慢慢沦陷

sometime love just ain't enough

baby,
am tired.
am sinking.
am fading away.
am dying inside.
am trying hard to pretend that am glad whenever you're not around.

i just want you to stay here with me.
:)

so the presentation was done eventually.
especially thanks to our beloved supervisor, Mr. bel gor!!
thanks for allowing us to present even the manager was not around.
thanks for the understanding and bearing with all the responsibilities.
finally, breath a sigh a relief!!!
:)))

another 4 weeks to go.
and left with another research project.
gosh.
it's about research again.

early in the morning.

cold.

shivering cold.

the endless raining days.

internship.

presentation.

lucks.

miracles happen for those who believe.

the presentation is postponed to 2 weeks after.
am not happy at all.
the longer it postponed, the longer i can't breath a sign of relief.

i hate R&D. i hate the manger. i hate internship.

:C

5 pages of presentation script.
hmm...
thinking of how to digest it and present it on coming Thurs.
am so stress. so suffer. so frustrated.
i know what can i do and what should i do. but i JUST don't wanna do!!
it is kinda sickening to work there.
to face the people there.
to cope with the stress.
5 weeks as if 5 years to me right now.

i hate SY. i hate internship

guilt

hmmm.
so sins today.
bumped on a cat on the way back home.
i thought the cat would die after i heard a sound of "bak"...
but when i looked at the side mirror, it still able to run.
and the "bak" sound was actually came from the cracking of bumper.
i wonder it must get severe internal injury according to the sound i heard and the injure degree of bumper.
i should not drive that fast... until it's too late to brake.
it must be suffered from agony right now.
so sorry.

but
apologize replaces nothing
:'(

不爽 不悦 不愿

今早会议 经理没出现 躲在自个房间 搞自闭
三个实习生 心中暗自欣喜 又是一个没经理的会议 多难得啊！
结果 轮到本实习生“演讲”完毕时
忽然 他冲过来 说：
“你。。。你。。。你。。。你和Ting再present一次。”
=.='''''''''''''
为什么要在房里偷听我们说故事！！！！！！！
没有退缩的余地，只有老老实实的再朗读一遍。。。
结果，
他既然要求提前presentation 提前呈交report.
其实这些都没什么 毕竟我们一直都有在做
最可恶的时 还有另个project要给我们跟进！！
人算 真的不如天算
还以为presentation过后，就可以不再不再受煎熬！！！
公司里没有一个人明白Ting和我有多少苦衷
一天上班八小时 7小时半是窝在那人间地狱里烤三甲板
就算有一两小时的空挡 公司也不见得有网路给我们找资料
试问，我们有什么时间来research!!! 我们有什么方法在上班时间来research!!!
结果，放工的时间我们不是看戏 不是出去 不是去哪里 不是为下学期的research project
一个月三百块的津贴 我接受
发少了津贴 我不追究
附近的空调永远都是关上的 围裙一穿就是没得换的 我也无所谓吧！
汗流浃背 我当运动
双手敏感 我都认了
被人差遣 我不想计较
被委任多点工作 自我安慰地说我学得比其他人多
but who cares!!! internship is just a pass or a fail!!!!!!
i want my holiday!!!

seriously, i hate SY! i hate everyone there

sunday post

:)

Sunday,
i slept whole day.
and went dinner at emart kfc after swimming...
together with may may, kian kian, the colleagues, the unknown seniors, the unknown colleagues from QC department.
overall, the oily kfc dinner is really full and disgusting! argh!!!

the 7th week,
ehm, nearer to the presentation day.
stress, so stress...
as the colleagues said that normally the presentation needs half day which means 4 hours for one trainee!!! my GOD!! that's crazy and unbelievable! i think i can finish the presentation within 20 mins!!

:(

i hate internship!!

brand new year

a day trip to Bintulu today for nothing but for the fortune teller. the result caused goosebumps as it is kinda scaring but this reminded me to cherish every single moment that we are able to spend together. to treasure the fate that destined us to be together. to hold your hand tight when there's still chance to do so. to hug you sincerely every time you ask for. to be tough, strong and not to rely on you. to not to cry that often.

the road ahead is hard and funky but we'll go through all these hand by hand. you will always reluctant to leave me alone and helpless, so to me as well. * hugs* and of course, the day will definitely never comes. *hugs*hugs*

happy anniversary honey!!
thanks for being everything for me.

♥ you're the best bf in my world ever ♥