:'(

今天的心情高伏迭起
让我有点想哭的感觉
真得很想哭
可是却是那种没眼泪的想哭

好纳闷
总觉得 天真的是想玩残我
一大早就发现自己昨天寄出的一堆求职信
忘记签下大名
=.=''
本来信心满满的 顿时乌云密布
没有人会聘请如次粗心大意的员工
要不就他好心 要不就他够单纯

心想昨天寄出的应该没希望了
就再出门影印所需的求职资料 跑了三四间
遇到的都是同样的问题 影印机当机了
-.-||||
最后找到一间 超级贵的
心一直耿耿于怀 今天的我糟透了

午觉睡醒 上网
一打开邮箱
老实说 心中的忧心多过高兴
是！我又收到某某集团的面试预约
就是那间 很多很多人争破头都想挤进的那间
很多星期前已经收过了
以为我会像周遭的朋友一样 都接受面试了
当并没有 我是那个唯一被他们抛弃的

原本已经做好心理准备了
原本已要开开心心出门了
突如其来的 “礼物”
让我不知所措

虽然心知就算接受面试
也不可能成功的
也许可以像珩说得那样
当个经验
但是
从一开始
我就选择了

逃避。。。逃避。。。逃避。。。

我找不到 那个属于我的勇气

>.<

time flies
and
June will be ended soon...

.sighs.
so poor
i need some cash for the coming trip!!!!

:(((((((

ramblings

I love the way you patch up with me after a tumultuous fight...

:))))))

and your love always give me the feeling that the best is still ahead

as you never give up on me, that's what keeps me going

heart favorite man

much more than the hatred on him

:))))))

tagged

went ming's cafe just now and
had my favorite lime juice there...
yea.. kinda satisfied...
and you know what
songs of Micheal Jackson were broadcasting
and this was the reason why
i started to feel admiration for ming's cafe
:)

it stirred up memories of old days
excluded his scandals, it's undeniable that
he's a very very talent person
since he's still a kid
his explosive force when performing
not only impressed everyone of us
but admired

Micheal Jackson
1958 - 2009
R.I.P

and now
gonna do the tag from bowie..
a very, extremely... long one
:)
i don't wanna nightmare tonight!

♥. PART ONE Q

Q01、ur name pls?
A：yuan hui

Q02 what do u think is a happy life?
A: people i love is healthy and still healthy. :)

Q03、love important or friends?
A：family

Q04、did u believe love last forever?
A: the fact is nothing last forever.

Q05、 現在過得快樂麼？
A：so so. the application of internship is torturing. somebody please lend me your hand. kindly contact me k...

Q06、if got secret, will u tell another half honestly？
A：yes... am kinda honest to my another half. but i don't think he is. lol

Q0 7、love little baby？
A：of course... but they are ANNOYING sometime. lol

Q08、do u think friendship last forever？
A：i personally think friendship last forever but the heat of friendship not.

Q09、wish to get married at what age？
A: at the age when the one i get married becomes billionaire. but that's too impossible. hahahhaha

Q10、dream family
A：ermm... good interaction and not selfish.

Q11、 would u do something that u think u will never do but u do for him？
A: of course. as long as he's the one i love and he loves me... dad, bros, and favorite man. XD

Q12、girls in curly or straight hair？
A：both.. am kinda 善变

Q13、wish to go where for vacation？
A: every single corner of the world

Q14、things never forgot?
A：i never forgot everything. :)

Q15、if u love someone, should u retrieve him back？
A：you know the answer if you know leo. hahahhahahah

Q16、look into the sky u thinking of who？
A：actually i think of stars every time i gaze the sky. :)

Q17、would u love him forever？
A : yes. i love my dad, my bros, my favorite man... XD

Q18、person who like u and the person u like, which one u choose？
A：the person i like

Q19、how to express ur love to him？
A : i dono.. am numb!!!

Q20、if ur love one sleeping in front of u u will？
A : rape him!!! hahahhahaahhaha

Q21、if u can hit someone who will it be？
A：it will be nobody. i don't want to be sued.

Q22、do u regret about ur decision？
A: i try to persuade myself not to feel regret actually.

Q23、what u be crazy about now?

A：quite alot actually... hahhahahha

Q24、are u a good child?
A：sometimes.

Q25、love and bread which one more important?
A：of course bread. when you have bread, you have love too. you only have the ability to take good care and provide the best thing for your love one. but once you choose love instead of bread, you got nothing but suffering from starvation with the one you love. if you love her/him, you won't want her/him to suffer.

Q26、if u putus cinta how?
A: totally agree with bowie.. find a new one la!!! hahahahhaha

Q27、if ur bf or gf don wan go home, what will u do？
A: stay at my home then... lol

♥. PART TWO

01、who pass u this survey？
A：HU KUOK FONG... :))))

02、how long do u know each other？
A：since secondary school... hahahhaha

03、is she important to u？
A：sure... friends are important in my life.

04、what are the relationship between u n her？
A：friend and still friend. she doesn't want to have further relationship with me.. XD

05、what thing she like to do?

A：singing? hahhahaha

06、how is her personality?
A：friendly, cheerful......... and Pretty!!

07、how to u feel about her?
A: i feel she's sweet!!! hahahahhaha

08、thing to do before sleep？
A：hugging my snoopy and smelling the towel i used to hug ... and of course.. cover blanket.. lol

09、ur idol？
A : it changes with time. lol

10、u like what season？
A: the season spending with favorite people.

11、u working？
A：yea... working as a housemaid and babysitter currently! lol

12、working how many times？
A：more than 3 times.... hahahhaha

13、country u wish to go？
A： any as long as i don't need to spend single cent.. hahahhahaha

14、u hate what kind of attitude ？
A：backstabbing, misunderstanding, preconceived idea.....

15、u smoke？
A: yes... a secondhand smoker. hahahhahaha

16, u drink？
A: once in a blue moon. lol

17、u owes cry？
A：yes.. often!!!

18、u owes smile?

A：kinda... lol

19、where u like to go shopping / play?
A：i like any place to shop or play as long as my purse is full. lol

20、when go shopping like to alone?
A: i hate alone!

21、if holiday u sleep until what time?
A：sleep until i think it's enough...

22、how was the weather today?
A：kinda good.

23 、friends and lover u choose what?
A: family

24、chance and destiny, u choose what？
A：destiny gives chance.

25 You shiok sendiri not ? 你很自戀麼？
A：yes.. kinda!! hahhahaha leo characteristic bah!!!

26、this survey long not?
A: extremely long

27、how to make urself live happily?
A：when there is no problem and obstacles in my life.

28、wish to get what when birthday?
A ：favorite man knows!! but he used to forget! darn him!!!

29、like to eat ice?
A：super

30、Are you blissful now?
A：yes.. but i think is not enough! lol

31, The friends u care the most.
A: i care my family the most... lol

32、the most important things in ur room?
A ：my bed.. and still my bed...

33、owes dream about what?
A：i dream anything which can be dreamed. lol

34、精神出軌要不要原諒他？
A：i won't forgive when i think to dump him. hahahhaha... a good excuse to break kan? lol

35、what do you think about "life"?
A：hard..

36、listen what song will cry?
A：so far don't have any.. i only feel touched when listening to some songs.

37、if dont have friends what u will do?
A：get to know new friends lo!!! XD

38、If im dissapear what u will do?
A: ermmmm... report police.

39、on the floor got one RM100 and RM50

A: both of course!! hahahha

40、the time now?
A：1.12 am

41、currently favourite song?
A：too many... hahahahah

42、currently wish to say..
A：i heart you

43、what is the problem that drive u crazyy?
A：lack of confidence!!

44、this afternoon eat wat as lunch?
A : low salt, low oil... LUNCH!!!

45、jingkak punya level？
A : level 3... hahhaahahha

46 when did bad thing how？
A：guilty!! hahaha

47、when you will have work?
A : end of November.!! hahahha

48、什麼時候才會打到驚魂書？
A : what's that?

49、client a where r u？
A：???

50、happy de laugh suffer ma?

A: why it suffers??

51、we live together happily ok?

A：sure!!!!

52、有沒有崩潰的感覺？
A： sometimes.

53、do you know what does far means?
A：the distance between two hearts.

♥. PART THREE

54、My background music nice not?
A: got meh? lol

55 what is in ur bag?

A：things i need

56、who is the most important person in ur life? choose only one.
A：family.

57、what's ur favorite foods?

A: so many........ la!!!

58、do you like somone now?
A：yes

59、you still like him?

A：him?? yes~

60、Do you think im bad？
A ：NO!!

♥. PART FOUR

61. Do you love me?
A: what do you think??

62. Will you married me?
A: many people will kill me if you want. lol

黑暗过后

忍了那么久
还以为
是真的变强了
但始终不敌哭包的魔力
原来我还是以前的我
不一样的只是
关键时刻
就算眼泪在打滚
要把它吞下去
对
就是那样吞下去

这段日子
就算变成中国国宝
就算变成青春脸
很丑
但原来我们不再介意

：）

雨过
天空放晴了
空气清新了
出现的彩虹
就像是希望
也是新的开始

人生
本来就是充满希望的
不是吗

：）））））））

updates

well

after self-precipitating during these few days
i think it's time to blog again!!!
:)

and i just come back from the dinner which
organized by Miri 许氏 Association
that aimed to celebrate 孝亲节

to be frank,
i was touched!!!
deeply touched by some sections
especially when the organizer broadcasting 钱不够用2
the scene when the old and sick mum begging
her son not to dump her at the nursing home
.sighs.
this is why chinese always say that
久病无孝子
and the songs playing were just marvelous!!!

and eventually
had a hair cut today
which cost me 25 bucks
:(
and i actually still can't believe that
i requested the hairstylist
to cut my hair shorter!!!!
i wanna keep it longer..
but why did i asked her to help me to cut shorter??
* self slapping *
the differences of before and after hair cut
are that
huge bush became smaller bush..
thick bush became slimmer bush..
long bush became shorter bush..
and i look so NOOB and numb
with the round fringe cut.
lol
in a nutshell,
my face looks rounder yet head becomes lighter
:)

and this pic was taken during favorite man's
24th birthday
with his 24th birthday present.
yupsss... he's officially 24!!
and i still 20
* wink *
i love old man
:)
and he looked kinda sissy here!!!
♥ heart him ♥

till then

more pics would be uploaded soon in my fb
when i feel like not so so so lazy to upload
:)

the night before last final paper

morning.. i nap
afternoon... i nap
and just now... i nap again
:'(

had tried my best to stay awake...
but the feeling of feeling sleepy
when either reading the lecture note
or revising the tutorials problem
are suck to the MAX!!!

finally i can't fight with the sleeping bugs
which keep creeping inside my body..
i... i.... surrender...
and decided to sleep NOW
i rather to wake earlier the next day
instead of wasting time falling asleep now!!

yea, 'll be free within a day!!
holiday is just around the corner....
ms. Joanne!!
we can go beach afterward!!!
contact me automatically if you read this ok~~
i don't know your new num!!!

:)

good night

may lady luck stay with me tomorrow!!!
god bless me

testiness

my blackie is finally discharged
but so sien....
it's like a stranger to me now..
everything is so different than previous

and after facing favorite man's lappie for nearly a week
i totally cant adapt to my wide monitor screen..
:(

and today tp final...
sighs...
i just feel so speechless to myself

what a moody day

day of judgement

less than 12 hours to the final exam
of
3rd year, semester 1

ok,
this time i really really
do not prepare well...
and that's the reason why
i keep feeling nervous and still nervous....
not only nervous, but SCARED of it

yupsss, i failed to plan...
so meaning that i planned to fail ...
:'(

yes, regret i do...

herng is right
when you wanna squeeze everything into your brain
your brain explode
and you got nothing!!!

may lady luck would stay with me
on tomorrow and Wednesday

god bless me!!!!! bless me!!!
BLESS me!!

s o l e

when i lay down on my bed today
i know that 'm loved
that's when i feel beautiful
......

and so,
i felt beautiful for the past 887 days
as well as today
i felt beautiful for 2 years 5 months and 5 days
** so vain**

listening to "ave maria" by beyonce
repeatedly, from morning till night
it was utterly outstanding!!!!!
:)))))

you're my heaven on earth
you're my hunger, my thirst

||| 2 days to final - super duper stress |||

desperation

'm in need of a hair cut so badly!!!!
'm lack of self confidence with this kind of bush hair
'm suffering from inferiority with an out-of-shape curly hair
'm losing self esteem with this disorder hair

if you were a leo,
possibly you would know what kind of feeling
that 'm suffering right now
argh!!!!!

seriously, terribly....
it despairs me day by day

sad
why am i so useless

and i just not able to concentrate at all!!!
:'((((((

destroy king

roar roar roar...
siapa curi saya punya "transport phenomena" ????
anyone who has seen my transport phenomena paper
please kindly return to the owner - me, me, me...
yes it's ME
i miss it pretty much!!!
you will be rewarded either a ferrero rocher chocolate
or golden boronia nougat by doing so...
:)))))))

yupssss!!!
had ruined one desktop and one lappie within 24 hours!!
i think i had broken the Guinness book of records....
*proud*
am a destroyer now!!!!!!
am now not just in name only,
but also in reality - am a troublesome

so sorry to my little blackie
and of course, favorite man's lappie!!
i know i should not be so troublesome....
:((((((((

you never know that...
guiltiness poured over every single cell of my body
as you don't blame it on me for being so annoying

i wondered you should know that .... i....
i don't mean... i don't mean to collapse them....

would the lady luck stay with me during final exam??
i hope!
:)

and,
it's a week to semester BREAK!!
wow wOw!!!
can't wait