大大的stress

也许我该换个心情
不该再继续为学业而烦恼
因为毕业了
职业才是那最恼人的。。。

人生短短的几十年
读书也只占了20年
打工呢？30 40 甚至是50年

也许是在家里排行的关系
我很弱 很弱 很弱
总觉得哥哥姐姐们 都很棒！！！
真的。。。 他们 都好强！！

记得胖胖的蜜蜂很生气
那天不小心说自己很没用
他很生气 很生气
其实我好想拿起手机 告诉他我有多想他
他陪伴我走过了很多。。很多
:'(

:C

you (yea don't doubt - i mean you), you never know that there's always little truth behind every "just kidding", a little knowledge behind every "i don't know", and a little emotion behind every "i don't care"....

is feeling so sad. don't ask me why because i'll just lie and say i'm fine, i'm alright, and i'm ok. eventually i break down and cry because i've been strong for too long.....

Smile. It irritates those who wish to destroy you

小时候常常希望快点长大
因为向往着大人们的生活
如今终于长得有点儿大了
却不想再长大了

其实
大人们的世界很邪恶
生活多是被谎言给填满
尔虞我诈 斤斤计较 斗心勾角
见风转舵 笑里藏刀
。。。。

如果可以平凡点多好
如果可以平静点多好
如果可以简单点多好

这样你伤害我
我伤害你
到底
有完没完？

假装

当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被搁在一角

last week of holiday. sobs!

today was all about food food and still food!!! so many many calories have been consumed from early in the morning till this hour!! went dim sum buffet at mega in the morning. omg, kinda disappointed to the foods. they were all different from the advertisement. what to do, advertisement always lie people.. still, boulevard restaurant provides the best dim sum within Miri!!!

and gonna bed on 2230. and will try to quit fb gamesSssSssSss. :)))))

i want a healthier lifestyle.

ah nong's saturday

alone with puff puff.. what a lonely afternoon :'(

waiting... waiting for the phone to ring :'(



destroying the newly-bought-bag of honey bee



obviously, i'm going to become insane soon.
urgh!! wanna wanna sleep early from tomorrow onwards!

joke of the day

this morning when i was on the way to take my car in campus parking slot.. i met with our very funny and humorous lecturer, Mr. J. he showed me his very charming smile with his very healthy rows of teeth when we saw each other... and followed by some greetings.

Mr. J: Hi, how you doing?

the idiot, me: (waving my sch fee receipt) paid school fee.

Mr. J: (a very VERY weird emotion) oh oH~

the idiot, me: ...


Chinese used to describe such condition as "答非所问". i can feel that he was =.='''' when hearing my reply. but think the other way round, i would be always impressed in his mind because of the very unique answer....


bah~~

i want fruits!!! flood me with FRUITS!!!

good times

忽然怀念以前
以前一起到梦竹林的日子

一份海鲜火锅
一份鲜蚝
一份炸芋头
一份炸薯条
一份芝士烤饭
两份鲜鸡蛋

你最爱的蛋蜜汁
我喜欢的蜜桃味

还有附送的龟型布丁
不停播放的轻柔乐曲
不停地把菜菜往你碗里夹
而你则负责把海鲜去壳
最棒最棒的还是最后的烫底
浓浓的芋香
都是我们的最爱

然后我们都很饱 很饱 很饱

就这样 我们一直一直在向横发展

:)

21

21岁的那一年 你在干什么？

我的21
很平凡 很平静 很贫穷 但其实也很幸福
也许 在过分安逸的环境下
自己 开始向往不安逸
开始怀着想要破坏原有一切的念头

其实一直在想 想很反叛地结束21
但我老了 累了 不够勇敢了。。。。
呃。。。我想我也不曾勇敢过

最近看了出自陶子的作品 --- 我爱故我在
很棒很经典的书
一直以来 没看书的习惯 更觉得文字让眼泪滑下根本就是天方夜谭
其实没有哭 只是在眼里打转 因为那篇描述自然产的文章 真是顶呱呱
还有很多很多 关于感情的文章
天啊~ 那些都是多么的贴切

也许 明天醒来 我会变勇敢
勇敢的结束我的21

enjoy the simple things

rainy night
.....
brunei trip
....
without honey bee
...
junk foods hunting
..
excapade
.

image of love

终于明白
很多时候自己爱上的并不是对象的本身

而是爱上自己对对象本身所产生的想象
哈~哈~哈~

(:

♥ our little boy ♥

Sunday. honey bee. dating. beach. obesity.

懂了

去了口碑很好的 kent's garden
原来美里小到夸张
所谓的 kent's garden 也就是学校食堂的 kent's station

除了餐厅的设计别出心裁
我想不到它到底有多好
蚊子 很多
服务态度 有待改善
至于食物 主人家不给机会尝
但在等待的过程中 隔座顾客的食物分量却看来有点儿大
饮料
点了 lime juice 蛮适合低糖主义的我
而胖胖却点了 特制绿茶

客人不多 但坐下来十五分钟了也没人来服务
点了的宵夜 却没出现过
恩~

就如 skin food 般
就算我再喜欢那里的产品
售货员的态度差
我宁愿不进去
情愿不买我想要的

。。。。

又是时候看普京兔啦~
嘻嘻

crabs 1 kg tonight?

argh... do not know the reason why am i so addicted to crabs recently... i miss crabs. i miss korean food. i miss escapade sushi. i miss donuts. i miss japanese pastry. i miss all those addictive and fattening delicacies. urgh. how much i wish i'm not a girl....


watch 普京兔 from youtube these few days. they're really funny. stupid. and yay~ SO cute....

urgh.. furious

seriously i do not know the reason why my blackie used to sick once every year... com'on blackie you're good boy. please be strong and not to let me down. hopefully tomorrow morning when i switch on you, you will be recover from every sickness. sighs. think to change a new one. yet lack of money. the cheapest one need 1k.. omg... ... and i still need to brace my teeth. goshs. lady luck can you please stay with me and pay some sympathy to me for letting me to win 1st price of toto or 4d? am in need of money urgently...

super moody now... because of so many things!!! and when i think about year end that i need to hunt a job. argh!!!!!!!!!!! i wish not to grow up!!!!

想伤心一下下就好了

went facial wash today finally. actually i craved it for such a long time as my skin is getting worst day by day. in bygone days, pimple only popped out once in awhile. yet now, the pimples come altogether in the same time. as what i expected, the beautician said that my skin is no longer as good as before and both of my cheeks are LOOSEN~!!! *cries*



but i've no money to buy a better skin care for myself. i'm so broke now. i shouldn't keep spending on unnecessary things. i shouldn't be insatiable.....

and i think it's time to think over what i really want.

我回来咯！！！

头发很丑
脸很老
我很丑

很累的旅程，却学了很多 真的是很多很多
也许我只能说
女人的一生可以用悲来形容
悲哀 悲惨 悲伤 悲痛 还有 无限的无奈

想象。。。
电话拨给心爱的男友
傻乎乎地问他在哪了
其实她不懂
他的旁边正坐着别的女人
电话里储存的 也不只是她的相片
简讯里 都是 都是 和别人暧昧的短讯
。。。

难道这就是女人的命运吗？
难道无论什么都会过期吗？
难道就不可以不贱一下吗？
难道有钱就能玩弄爱情吗？

也许这样坏透的男生
就是很多女生会喜欢
难道是女生造就了这样的男生吗？

不明白 不懂
也许人类的细胞里都隐藏了坏坏的基因
就是要叛逆 才开心


莫名其妙地收到迟来的玫瑰
真得迟了 迟了好久 好久
正如你说的 它很便宜 却很有意义
因为迟了 所以只能在小小的袋子里枯萎
然后一切随风
被遗忘

胖胖

不舍得
舍不得

怎么办
已经 好想 好想 好想
莴的胖胖

♫ 别再哭了♫

♫
伤心情歌播几遍了

你的眼还湿红红的

生命总有些过客

现在不过多了一个

结束了何必再拉扯

有些事总该遗忘的

你听着听着又哭了

我明白的谁都难免不舍

别再哭了 多不值得

想一想把爱情看透彻

生活苦涩该他负责

他会后悔他做了这选择

别再哭了 多不值得

失去也是另一种获得

伤心情歌 不属你的

幸福不一定非爱谁不可

难熬的 会经过的

别再哭了 多不值得

失去也是另一种获得

伤心情歌 不属你的

幸福不一定非爱谁不可

爱错了 又能如何

幸福不一定非爱谁不可

难熬的 会经过的
♫

this song is superb. it's good for healing. keep listening non-stopping not because i was hurt and need to be healed but because of the lyric. (: hmm.. feeling so unwell today. keep feel like vomiting and suffering from disgusting feeling whole day long. i'm NOT pregnant i sure. and poo poo for uncountable times today. i wondered the hygiene of the restaurant last night! damn!

well, going to sibu this coming Sunday. tired. i'm tired when i think of the long-hour-ride. a bit reluctant actually as i know, i'll miss everything here BADLY. :c

signing off

holiday is boring!

full.. very full
full until gastric..
:(

movie day but no movie.. urgh!

终于 他后悔了
五年后 他回头了
很可惜 狮子座是宁可放弃一段感情 也不会吃回头草的
因为她最爱的人是自己
其实也没很可惜 因为 现在什么感情也没有了
那些过去 因为不重要了 所以忘了
五年耶 什么都腐烂了
更何况 你一点都不值得
^^

其实没有再见面的需要
现在的关系很好
不要破坏 不要改变
:)

07-07-10

being as a female is hard.
while, to be a pretty female is even harder....
:(

please don't give up though holding on is much tougher...
i've faith in you, you can do it, yhui!!
:)

eventually email fyp supervisor.. and i got the read confirmation email from her. meaning that she read my mail already but haven't reply me yet. hmm...... and recently suffering from insomnia because i nap too long everyday. sighs. i don't like to stay up actually. i don't want panda eyes too!!!

and i wanna watch toys story.
:)
and i want korean food
and i want escapade sushi
and i want ice-blended chocolate cream chips

:(
seriously craving for addictive fattening foods!

argh!!

没有也许

没有也许
明天不会领着行李，出现在机场
很肯定了 不会动摇 也不再想了
没有也许
所以现在不是在整理行李 是在写日志
发发牢骚 过过瘾

傍晚贱男人来电了
他说：“对不起宝贝 今天收到的还是不够呢 要到下星期才会有”
心里暗爽了下 也心痛了一下
更不明白为什么我的贱男人可以那么“天真”外加“单纯”
就算有钱了又怎样 难道人家酒店天天为他空着吗~

最晴天霹雳的还是姐姐告诉我的消息
就是阿~
新加坡的机票她订了。。。结果我呢！！！！
又是被遗忘
算了呗 算了呗

我知道的 知足常乐啊~
不是自我安慰 真的很开心现在拥有的
因为天公是不会偏心的
不会给你太多 也不会给你太少
就刚刚好 恰到好处
如果你觉得不够 那是因为你太贪心了呗

:)

sunday

you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldn't speak
you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you lifted me up when i couldn't reach
you gave me faith cause you believed

good dating day with fat honey bee
though we keep arguing
still, wanna thank you
for pampering me always
overeating today. lack of water today
all because of you

:)

happy mode

illusions

holiday is good. definitely good. how much i wish i could have lifestyle as this for the rest of my life. but i know these are too impossible. as i'm not satisfy for all these yet. i wanna earn big bucks to get all luxurious which i want and of course to bring all my love ones to travel together with me. i hope this is not only a dream, but able to achieve in near future. most importantly, to get a very comfortable house - my dream bed room with the white Lorenzo's bed , the gigantic washroom with spa bath...... and bla bla bla which were being shared with my honey bee. hmm... small house is not a matter, the main thing is that it must fulfill my basic requirement!!! leo leo LEO! :D

to achieve all these INCREDIBLE missions, i can only dream once in awhile and work hard word hard. but the fastest way is married a rich man. rich man rich man, please approaches me immediately. or honey bee honey bee can you please turn into rich man the next SECOND?

:D

happy today not because for those you bought for me, not because you were willing to give me opinions when i was asking, and of course, it was not because of the heavy-thunder-rain.... but just a sentence from you. simple yet attain the point. i know i'm a realistic girl. thank you for knowing me so well and this is the main reason why i can't stop loving you.

:D

July

:D