go forward

strong wind,
i can hear the dreadful sound when it hits the window...
as if how it cries for my sadness...

heavy rain,
i can sense how oppressive it is...
as if how it ruins everything...

rainy day is bad,
it sorts out all of the negative thoughts and feelings.

time to get back to reality,
to get back to the hectic life.
to get back to the life which belongs to me.
no matter how it is, it must be carried on.
:))


goodbye,
the LAST holiday.

面目全非

日子很平淡
心情很枯燥
烦恼特别多
头脑特别钝

。。。

Together you & me

There are no words that could ever tell you
how much I truly love you...

Now and always
you are my love, my strength, and my courage...
till the end of time...

You know,
I'm the luckiest person in the world
to have your heart as you have mine...

Thank you, Honey!!!
for standing beside me
through good times and bad times..

Always loving you

无题

新加坡人的电影
就是连恐怖片都要穿插人生道理
吓到笑 一部即恐怖 又好笑的电影
与一般恐怖片不同的是
恐怖的背后有笑点 有意思
你根本无法想象 戏院内呐喊后 哄堂大笑的情景
这就是为什么新加坡电影卖座的原因

...

holiday tone

still in holiday mood.
slacking. shopping. eating. resting...
i done all sort of things, unless dating.
*sob*
is entirely in a sluggish mode recently.
holiday is just extremely good.
:))))

've gained lotsa weight.
high calories are absorbed every single meal.
ample and abundant breakfast every morning
as well as sumptuous dinner every night.
feel like puking when i think about food now.
but i still eat alot when it's time to eat. lolx
thanks to the visit of my cuzzie.
without her, without all sorts of delicacies inside my tummy
:))))

yet, the pain of gastric comes to torture me every night after dinner.
how sadly. how hateful gastric is!!
the painfulness is so unbearable and terribly suffering..
lastly, i invented a new way to get rid of gastric...
dang dang dang dang...
a glass of lemon juice is able to neutralize the acid inside the stomach.
:)))))

had a hair cut again today.
to cut off the bushes on my hair.
i'm desperately frustrated by the bushes since such a long time ago.
i just couldn't wait to go to saloon and get my hair done.
and finally today ...
:))))

whEeeEEeee....

i'm broke but i enjoy alot.
:)))

heart heart him

random entry

周围的人总在 突显手机很安静
安静得很自然
自然得很习惯
习惯得很理所当然
其实也没什么大不了
:)

little ahnong with the little horse display at boulevard restaurant

the rm20 cash voucher of Delifrance was spent on this - seafood platter

and this - mango cheese + tiramisu + Oreo cheese

cuzzie. *so fat me sob sob sob*

and now you know the reason why people used to say i'm the older one. wth!!

life's still good after all.

思念中

i can't bear not to see my little naughty niece recently...
i can't bear not to hear her voice...
i can't bear not to suffer from her loso-ness...
i can't bear not to receive her goodnight kiss every night before she sleeps...
i can't bear not to hug her...
i can't bear not to listen every song she sings...
i can't bear every single moment without her at home.
i just can't bear the silent of this house because of the absence of her.

if not for her,
there's without laughter,
without joys...

ish, cepat balik rumah la!!!
i've killed all the mosquitoes already!!!!
:)))

想念中。
思念中。

天佑我，
考试顺利！！

random entry

feel like going to BOOM my hair recently.

hence, i shared my thought with favorite man last night during our dinner + supper at the new renovated airy cafe.

he stopped his meal and stared back at me seriously at that moment.

"i think it's better to tell me that when would you like to get it straight again after you BOOM your hair"

"..."

"Oh, i anticipated that you would get bored of it during coming Nov and tell me that you need a straight. then during CNY, you will tell me that you need a perm again. then again, straight and perm and straight and perm..."

"..."

so frustrated...

so craved for the mango puree snow ice .. :'(

what a slacker i'm
duh, go revise control la!!!
*slap*slap*slap*

还有我

還有我
詞：黃明志 曲：張捷惟 / 蘇俊元

去年夏天不寂寞 你的歡笑陪著我- 光良
乘著風聽你 編織著夢 - 張棟樑
徜徉在一片豐收 - 易桀齊

當雨不再浪漫害羞 當風不再輕輕送 - 張智成
藍藍的天又 深鎖眉頭 - 方炯賓
你害怕 你惶恐 不知所措 - 張棟樑

朋友別再哭了 就算世界變化再多 - 光良
還有我 在身後 奮不顧身的挽救 - 林宇中
朋友你還有我 在為你默默的加油 - 龔柯允

抓著我 的雙手 如果你還在顫抖 - 林建輝
天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走 - 張棟樑

當雨不再浪漫害羞 當風不再輕輕送 - 光良
藍藍的天又 深鎖眉頭- 張棟樑
你害怕 你惶恐 不知所措 - 張智成

朋友別再哭了 就算世界變化再多 - 方炯賓
還有我 在身後 奮不顧身的挽救 - 林建輝
朋友你還有我 在為你默默的加油 - 易桀齊
抓著我 的雙手 如果你還在顫抖- 林宇中
天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走 - 方炯賓+ 龔柯允 (Karen)

彩虹躲在山的那頭 光線就在雲的背後 - 張棟樑
我在雨中 陪你守候 - 林宇中
包紮了今天的傷痛 擦乾眼淚勇敢振作- 光良
明年夏天 有你有我 - 龔柯允+張棟樑

朋友別再哭了 就算世界變化再多 - 光良
還有我 在身後 奮不顧身的挽救-合唱
朋友你還有我 在為你默默的加油-合唱

抓著我 的雙手 如果你還在顫抖-合唱
天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走 -合唱

天會藍 雨會停 我陪你走- 光良

it's FRIDAY again!!!

n weeks ago, the experiment of distillation was terminated due to the blackout in the campus.
n weeks later, again, the experiment of distillation for group B4 was terminated due to the broke down of pumping system around the distillation column.
how sadly. how desperate. we just so lack of fate with distillation.... we just so lack of some lady luck to complete the experiment.
how poor we are.
:(

yesterday 8 hours extraction lab + today 3 hours FAILED distillation lab replacement... am so sick every time i think about the unit of Process Laboratory Project. am so scared every time it comes to Thursday.... and mood is terribly bad if replacement lab is needed!!!!
stacking at the lab with no air-conditioner provided for 4 hours or more than that...
plus wearing a thick lab coat....
plus wearing long pant...
plus wearing closed-toes shoes....
plus wearing mask if the odor of the chemical is horrible...
plus blurring inside the lab...
plus fooling around by the so weak equipments provided inside the lab or the shortage of chemical solutions which are needed for carrying on the experiment...
...
sighs.

if we knew the correct ways to undergo each experiment..
why are we still paying so high amount of tuition fee for the Uni every semester??? yea, i know that we should try out ourselves. we ain't kindergarten student anymore. but how many set of equipments and how much storage of chemicals are provided for US to try.

once we failed, yea.. the next group suffers.

yupss.. i just wanna blow off to release my unsatisfactory!!
ish!!!!!!!!!!!

穷人
就是连吩咐工人做分内的事情
都要觉得内疚

wednesday

090909

special day for many couples and also for ms. Yeo and her beloved one.

4 years. aint easy at all.

and it's simply touching to view those engagement photos from fb. so many seniors from peimin were engaged on this special day. congratzZz.

marriage touches me because it's one of the hardest thing in the world for me. two persons from different family and different background become a family and stay under the same roof. it's not only about love. but life. reality. differences. this really need lotsa courage but not temporary impulsion!!! :))))) people used to say i would be the fastest one to get married. but too bad, i really so scared of marriage.... as if an investment without guarantee. lolx

for me, today was just an ordinary day. nothing was special as today wasn't my ENGAGEMENT day nor ANNIVERSARY day bah!! lolx...

yet, i got rm20 vouchers as i won during the so-lame-ice-cream-game that organized by Delifrance, Curtin. i don't mean to win this game actually but another 5 pretties were reluctant to win bah. that's why i have to ruin my imagine in front of the public to squeeze one cone of ice-cream inside my mouth and SHOUT a slogon for Delifrance. " delifrance, always my 1st choice". feel like vomiting when i thinking about the slogon i shouted just now. so paiseh leh!!!!

process instrumentation & control.
tell me how can i conquer you?

signing off.
goodnight

我要快乐

原来
当狮子失去自信时
就像行尸走肉般
没有灵魂的生命
也许 外表依然没什大碍
但其实内心真的生病了
真的病得不轻
那种压迫感是前所未有的

一直在寻找依赖
一直在自欺欺人
我恨我拒绝独立
我恨我无能为力
我恨我 自己

挣扎 矛盾 忧闷 悲观 自卑 失望 。。。
所有所有负面的情绪
其实 也只有自己可以解决
心魔不被战胜
永远永远也只能
被它 折磨
被它 绊倒

我看到我的问题
我看到我的懦弱
我看到我自己
我很累
我很烦
我很辛苦
但 我很努力地去寻找自救的方法

我很想
找回我的自信 找回我的目标 找回我的未来 找回我的灵魂
找回原本属于我的一切

找回我的快乐
我想要的快乐

那会是何时呢？

保佑我

his bird's day

yea...
GUNA!!
happie birthday

he's going to treat me SS very SOON!!
:))))

原来
最多埋怨的
最常不知足的
事实上却是最幸福的

因为只有沉溺在幸福中的
才会知道什么是 不满足
才会想要去埋怨

内疚我的任性
感激你的迁就

wanna wanna watch this la!!!!!!

another brand new week again.
presentation.
assignment.
tests.

i will be hardworking
as if how hard you work everyday

people used to ask me what i actually like about you
you don't have body
you don't have money
you don't have outward
you don't have successful business
you are just empty with a big tummy.

i stared blankly every time people ask me this
yet,
now i know the reason why.

:)))

哼！！！！

我无法体谅
我无法谅解
我无法原谅
我无法接受
我不能。。。我不能。。。我不能
重复说了三次 就证明我真的是不能

可悲的是
你在另一头 既然
感激我的体谅 我的谅解 我的接受。。。。
你是真的不懂 还是在假装不懂

#@$%#%$^*

你真的以为我是神吗？
你真的以为你的魅力有那么强哦！！！
你真的以为你不会输给时间的稀释！！！
醒醒吧！！！
哼！哼！哼！！！
哼了三次，就表示我是真的在哼你！！！

男人vs女人

>.<

真是丢脸丢到家
快掘个洞给我。。
我要把头塞进去
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

忘了说对不起

ramblings

frustration pours over every single cell of my body
am feeling the frustration and desperation deeply, truly, and madly
it nearly drowns me... it nearly suffocates me.
as if the quiz i took at fb, am a noob when it comes to studies.
the idiot who received zero mark in exams
it's amazingly accurate, don't you think so???

Engineering is simply unreachable for me!!! UNREACHABLE!!!
am not belonging to engineering field but what should i do...
i've loaned 80k for the course which is not suitable for me.
how am i going to pay all these debt???
stupid... idiot... noob
:((

and there's without a company willing to bestow me a CHANCE to get internship at my HOMETOWN.
is that desperate enough or not??? JUDGE it!!!
their eyes are all sticking with the stool of bull.. that's why they can't see me.
that's fine!!!
bintulu, HERE i come!!! bintulu's rich mEn & engtao GUYS, I'M COMING!!!
uh uh... shake shake~~~

sighs.
i'm still down
Kalamansi, donuts, cheesy wedges, nougat, choc. ...
& whatever fattening snacks...
Please do cheer me up...
i just need something to light up my life.

hi, September
Grey Stept