那年这天

摩天轮
远远的望着
我以为我很想

终于
从平地上仰望着
真的很靠近了
我依然很向往

然而
正当要踏上时
我却步了
因为我发现
始终被你牵着
一起仰望着摩天轮
才是最幸福的事

那一年某一天
是你，带我去游乐场
很庆幸，
882天后
那个牵着我手一同去游乐场的人
依然是你

坐着当年同样的八爪鱼
在半空中翱翔
我们回忆起当初的点点滴滴
然后
彼此互笑
彼此互嘲
。。。。。。。

虽然没有一百分的我们
五十分的两个人刚刚好

永别了
忙碌的五月

fooooooool!!!

sigh
i don't know why i can be
so goosey + careless + silly
when am replying the mail which is important to me

though i know the percentage to be appointed to the internship position
in such a famous + international + competitive company
is equivalent to zero with my poor result

certainly, they had a bad impression on me
for providing incomplete details
and caused inconvenience to them
:(((

and now,
i make big mistake again
sigh
feel like punching and slapping myself NOW!!
argh!!!

what i can do now is only to pray
praying for the lady luck would stay with me
人家说，
天公疼gong人
i hope it would be really really and really happened on me
:))))

hectic week

the god damn psd project was finally done on monday
after stayed up all night without closed my eyes
seriously, i felt so old + aunty + ahmu
no matter how many slices of masks i use afterward
:(((((

the daffy ppe test was eventually over on tuesday
i actually think that 'm not able to do well for the exam
as i only spent less than 5 hours to focus on the tutorials questions
and dumped all lecture notes
as a consequence,
i felt panic and trembled when i couldn't get the answer
and when i failed to change the unit
and the limited space + uneven position of the table and seat
caused me neck pain!!
i always wonder whether the seats are designed
for primary school students?
:(((((

and today,
people spend most of their time on the combined project
which will be due on tomorrow.
and i spent most of my time slacking around
instead of helping my teammates
actually 'm not slacking at all...
i was busy for those who think 'm FREE!!
da*n
i just can't understand why my family always think 'm FREE?
lol

sincerely,
i would like to show my great appreciation to Ms. Yeo
mostly for PSD project
two helpless people stay alongside to battle
probably you will know how i feel when you were in my shoes
:))))

and tomorrow,
will be the combined project presentation
good luck to my team!!
sorry, i really do not contribute alot in the project
HAHA
and herng, would you remember to bring your camera??
i wanna take pic with my lengzai LA!!!
~~HAHA~~


it's dragon boat festival the next day
WeeWee
the best dumplings are handmade by my superwoman
had 2 for my afternoon tea
and dad had 3...
OMG... our tummy now are full of glutinous rice
and mama's love
:)))))

engagement

was deeply impressed and touched by this love letter
a love letter from a bf to gf...
for me, this is not only a love letter but also to propose .... lol
girls, do enjoy jealous the gf by reading this...
and men, will you start to be considerate to your love one
after reading through?
:p

一、 嫁给我，做我的妻子。虽然你不是一个漂亮的女孩子，但是

我可以向你保证，在我眼里，你将是这个世界上最美丽的新娘。而且在结婚以后，你在我眼里，依然是这 个世界上最美丽的妇人。我希望在你八十岁的时候，俯在你的耳边，告诉你：“感谢上天，他赐给我一个世界上最美丽最可爱只是没有了牙齿的老太婆。”

二、结婚以后，如果你依然希望做你的事业，我将尽我的全力去支持你，并且承担我应做的家务，我向你坦白，我煮不出什么美味佳肴，而且我会把厨房搞得一塌糊涂，但是我将尽力照着厨房美食上的话去做，努力把自己培养成为一个伟大的厨子。

三、如果你渴望避开尘世的喧嚣和烦扰，渴望做一个安安静静的小妇人，那么，我将尽我的全力去工作，去挣更多的钱来维持这个家庭，只是，只是我的臭袜子要归你洗。

四、我向你保证，我将推开一些不必要的应酬而早些回家，因为我知道你会在家里很寂寞，而且会为我担惊受怕。而且，我向你保证，无论我回家有多累，都会认真听你倾诉你一天所经历的事情，因为我知道你需要理解与支持，我是你的丈夫，这是我的职责。

五、和我生一个孩子。我希望可以和我们的孩子一起在你四十岁生日时在你的生日蛋糕上只插三十六根蜡烛。而且，我相信咱们的孩子会一改往日的调皮，一脸庄严像个小大人似的对你说：“天啊，老妈，你看上去只有三十岁，我的同学们都说你更像我的姐姐！”

六、我会忠诚于你，忠诚于我们的家庭。因为我知道，这是一个我爱你的表现。而且我知道如果我一旦背叛了你和别的女人有了不干净的来往，我会愧疚，愧 疚使我自责，自责使我无颜面对你，无颜面对你会使我想要逃避你依然纯洁的眼睛想要离开你，而离开你，是我这辈子最不愿做的事。

七、如果有一天你厌了倦了，你渴望离开我去自由的飞，我会为你饯行，虽然我固执的认为在你臂弯的甜美远胜于世界上任何的自由，但是我没有权力去希望你 也这样认为，我想我会对你说：累了，回家；倦了，回家；受伤害了，回家。我是你的丈夫，会守侯你的归来，这个家是你的家，这个家的灯将永远为你而燃。

八、如果有一天你爱上别的男人要离开我，我向你承认，我会吃醋会勃然大怒会伤心会痛苦，但是最终还是会选择分手，我只是希望那个男人能如同我对你一样 善待你，呵护你，照顾好你的今生今世，我会依然如同以往向上天祝福你，而且因为你不在我身边，我无法亲自照顾你，所以，我会祈求上天一千倍地祝福你。

九、我不知道前生前世我们有没有在一起，但那已经是过去式了，已经不重要；我不知道来生来世我们会不会在一起，但那太遥远了我无法去把握。我只在意今生今世，我希望在我有生之年，可以尽我最大的努力，让你在我的怀里，不惊风，不受雨，健康，平安，快乐。

十、也许我给不了你想要的未来..但我一定把我最好的都留给你..也许我没办法给你最豪华的婚礼..但我会给你一个深爱你的男人..也许我给不了你奢侈的蜜月旅行…但无论天涯海角..我一定陪着你..地球上..两个人能相遇并不容易..谢谢你让我走进你的生活...也谢谢你对我的信任...也许离开我...你还能遇到更多更好更帅的男孩,但你从来都对我不离不弃..更常常忍受我的无理取闹..我不能承诺你我可以爱你多久..如果一定要加上个期限..一定不会是一万年..因为一万年太久了..我没那么好命..我不会活那么久..因为我遇上你已经用尽我前世修来的福份...如果真有一天要面对生离死别..请你原谅我的自私..我想比你长命一些..并不是因为我舍不得明天的彩虹..而是我不舍得你因为我的离去而掉眼泪..上天给我了我和你这样的际遇..希望上天也能让我对你的爱坚持到底..至少在我闭上眼睛..在我永远离开你以前..我爱你..永远只对你说..

well,
the bf who wrote this was not my BF
the sun would possibly raise from the west
if he was such a considerate and attentive bf!!
:p
and of course since it wasn't from my BF, 'm not the gf too...
'm not as lucky as the gf or i should say the bride / wife
:))))

and they were just engaged on May 20, 2009.
a thousand congratulations!!!

我要当小强！！！

小强真的很可恶。。。
样子长得可恶不能怪，毕竟那是以身俱来的
但爱装死、
还有喜欢做坏事情。。。
让它无形中渐渐地变得更可恶。。
所以一看见就让人觉得很讨厌。。
恨不得把它打得五马分尸，
脑浆四溢，
肝肠寸断。。。

恨阿!
如今的我。。。
身上却要有着小强的精神
不是爱装死的精神
不是爱做坏事情的精神
而是那种打不死的精神。。
虽然小强的命运最终难逃一死，
但至少它在死之前使尽全身乏术，
为的只是求个侥幸！！

刚刚不小心又放了大错。。。
不知不觉slack了两个钟！！！
两个钟，也许我可以理解千分之一的 optimisation
哈~哈~
结果slack太多的后果就是没觉好睡
-_-''
HYSYS试了又试...
就连willie先生都没辙了
真的很不好意思，要他牺牲睡眠时间解释。。。
虽然最后还是找不到问题。。。
佩怡和chan离开后，
最可怜的就是willie了。。。因为一直被打搅。。
但是他真的很好心。。。
好心就是会有好报的。。
你看chan 的女朋友多漂亮！！
哈哈~

至于那些仗着自己比别人懂得多点东西
却不愿意伸出援手的人！
哼！
我真的很看不起你！！
就算你在课业上多么成功，
在某方面你是输得彻底！！
有你们的地方，
我真的想逃的远远的。。
不是我害怕你们
而是，你们给人窒息的感觉！！！
说真的，昨天下午我真的差点被窒息！！
哈哈！！

即使有考试，
我也不可能温习到那么“早”。。。
PSD, 我对你五体投地！！！

没有能不能，
只有要不要。。。
如果要，就能。
如果不要，当然也就不能！！
不要再说你不能了，
其实你只是不要罢了！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈

randomly

yupsss...
eventually owned a new monitor...
hi, LG
hope my life's good as what your slogan said

eventually the old and sick one can retire
and take good rest instead of serving me.
rest in peace, BenQ

to be frank,
the only thing i liked about this monitor was its colour...
everything about my desktop is now in black colour
black monitor, black keyboard, black audio equipment....
think to hunt a little black mouse soon
:))))

and its wideness make me so so... speechless...
as everything become shorter and fatter...
:(((((
and i even can feel my eyes become wider!!

sigh,
psd psd..
'm so worried about you!!

incompetent

god damn PSD
+
f*cking MONITOR

mummy,
can i quit now??

i know,
you rather want a happy daughter
though i can't make big bucks for you
though i can't take a bachelor degree for you
:'(((((

:( + :)

现实，
总是那么残酷。
伤心以后，
学会面对
学会接受
学会不在乎。

冷冷的。。
手冷，
脚冷，
头冷，
躯体冷，
再冷。。。
也抵不过 心寒
:(((((

oh ya, once again happy 21st birthday to Karen baby!!!

:)))

soul-mate

well...
during the dinner time,
sis-in-law asked me: "ah hui ah, somebody told me that you went coffee bean with your bf. but the somebody said that the one with you at coffee bean was not KENT... you have another bf????"

ah hui: " OMG.... when did i went coffee bean with another guy??? "

sis-in-law: " i told the somebody that KENT is your bf. but the somebody said that i'm totally wrong!!!"

ah hui: " @.@ the somebody sure the one he saw was me @.@ ?? that day we still met the somebody at campus leh"

sis-in-law: " yea. the somebody claimed that he's clearer than me when i repeatedly emphasized that kent is your bf. i thought you are playing 'split leg' leh"

ah hui: " OMG OMG...."

......

actually my market isn't as good as they think
even if i were falling in love with another guy,
i would just tell him honestly.
as the length of my legs ain't able to SPLIT bah!
lol
even if my stock quotes are good,
i want nobody nobody but ....
HIM
........
.....
...
.
he's simply irresistible
:)))))

happy lunar birthday to my favorite man.
yupssss.....
he's getting older and older...
:)))))
and 'm so looking forward to 12/6

♥ heart my favorite old-man ♥

ramblings

... ... yawn... ...
seriously,
i feel kinda nervous for the PSD test..
which weighted 40% of this unit...

nervous because
do not prepare well for the test la
sigh
'm a retarded during lectures and labs

frustrated!!
:((((

and it's raining cats and dogs now
with thundersSsSs

may lady luck stays with me from 0900 to 1010
god bless me

:))))

hatred

supper of the day
.......
....
..
.
half pack of mee kering
with...
3 slices of butter sugar breads ( yea, i kinda like butter sugar recently)
and...
a 325 mL of hot + thick milo

and now i still can hear my tummy utters " guk luk guk luk...."
darn...
what happen to my tummy!!!
the worst thing is that 'm going to bed soon
argh, supper is so fattening!!!

to be frank
i feel happy every time people tells me that
i look slimmer than before
:))))
who doesn't feel happy right?

yet, please
do stop telling me that i look slimmer!!!
as my appetite will become greater
and greater automatically afterward

this is what so-called mental illness

'm so hate of being fat
:(

up and down

yoooHoooo....
the ring is finally come back to me...
i thought,
today is a good day for me when i found the ring on my BED~
yet,
the joyfulness is soon covered by the result of PSD assignment 2...
should be the lowest mark in the class i wondered....
darn....
my mood is like the weather now...
cloudy~ cloudy~ and still, cloudy


sigh
sigh
sigh

ok, enough grumbling
as it is useless to cry over split milk
'll try to do my best afterward!!
:)))))

sigh

sigh
i just don't understand why am i so careless...
......
....
..
.
had lost my ring today
and i just can't find it...
:'(((((
the disappearance of the ring lead me to moodiness whole day long
sigh
am i able to take good care of my diamond ring in future???

ring ring,
please come back to me

well,
leng is now suffering from blackout
yet, is much better than suffering from snail's speed of streamyx like me
seriously, i hope the blackout is happened only at my room now
so that i can go bed instead of doing assignment~~

yawn yawn yawn

weekends

mood falls into the bottom these few days
'm not exaggerated, had cried more than 12 hours indirectly...
just for nothing~
as i don't really know what were going on me
=.=''
probably the noodles and bread drive me crazy...
probably i just miss my superwoman...
probably loneliness suffocated me...
probably studies depressed me...

as usual,
i used to spend my weekend in an unproductive way...
this situation went worst when everything seems to be so grey in my mind...

so sorry to my superwoman...
she keeps remind me to study before she departed...
she even called back and asked me whether do i study.
=.=''
probably she can sense that i don't really study at all...
or probably she can sense that 'm in darkness...

so sorry to myself...
for wasting my time in this way...
crying is the only way for me to release my tension
what to do,
i personally dislike drunk,
i seriously hate smoke...
and 'm anti-drug

so sorry to my favorite man
for enduring all my tempers and unreasonable one ...
yet never ever think to give up on me
he, sacrificed his sleeping time to listen to my whimpers
he, tried to cheer me up with various favorite of donuts...
he, spent his time alone in the living room when i shut my door....
thanks for being everything for me

so far,
the gloominess is away from me.
and, god
please do bless me for tomorrow TP test!!
:))))))

yupsss...
happy mama's day to my superwoman...
she knows i love her more than anything else in the world.
and of course,
happy mother's day to every mother in this world..
may healthiness and happiness always with you


actually today was another BREAD day for me,
you can see how many donuts he bought!!!

*心情很糟糕时，要吃点甜甜的。因为糟糟的心情会被甜甜的味道给淹没*

♥ 这个，那个，这这个，那那个♥

slacker

i was born to be a slacker
:(
slack here slack there...
slack from top to bottom...
yea~
my life is all about slacking~~
:((((((

personally think 'm in need of a hair cut..
my hair is now look like bushes
argh!!!
but why, 'm so POOR~~
sigh
so please tolerate with the bushes on my head~
:((((((

aches

:'(
tonight,
had finished a full plate of rice!!!

but now,
'm suffering from gastric!!!
i can feel that my stomach be eroded slowly...
:'(

'm extremely annoyed by PAIN recently!!!
i need some PAIN killers!!!
:'(

pain, please get rid off my body

rejoiced!!!

and so....
say hi to ------ MAY!!!!
:)))))

eventually, favorite man had complied with his promise today...
he was totally belong to MINE....

though there was without dim sum from boulevard restaurant in the morning, cheese and ham sandwiches
with lime juice as breakfast at Uncle Lai wasn't too bad...

though there was without mc. value lunch in the afternoon, mango snow ice + french fries as lunch was kinda satisfactory...

though there was without cheese cake from Secret Recipe, kalamansi ice-cream from dessert, ice-blended mocha from Starbucks, donutssSsss from Big Apple... as the sweeties of the day,
being shopaholic was enough to appease my appetite.... i vowed i really do feel a little little bit of guiltiness.
:)))))

though there was without watching sunset at beach,
walking at the park that we used to date in bygone days and recalling the sweet memories which belong to us, crapping at Grand Old Lady... it was kinda sweating yet comfortable interaction, right??
:))))))

though there was without Escapade sushi at night, having dinner with someone that loves you and you do love them too is JUST SO blissful...

if you press me to say why i loved him, i can say no more than because every single of my wishes come true when being with him....

and i just don't know the reason why...
when i gazed at the children when they are having donutsSssSss...
i was touched!!!
=.=''

argh~~
slacked for a day,
it's time to back to the reality...
back to the hectic study life...
:((((((