if not for u

Remember the first flush of love
that
drew us powerfully together?
(=

If not for you,
I wouldn’t know what true love really meant.
I’d never feel this inner peace; I couldn’t be content.

~~4 days until our 2nd anniversary~~

random update

Another year to create precious memories together.

Another year to discover new things to enjoy about each other.

Another year to build a life rich in love and laughter.

Another year to strengthen a companionship that defines forever

6 days until our 2nd anniversary...

圣诞快乐

一样的情景
一样的理由
和去年一样
今年 你给我的圣诞礼物
是失望 是眼泪
唯一不一样的是 不再气愤

离不开
就要学会面对
舍不得
就要学会接受
面对。。然后接受 残忍的事实

一直在学习
看透彻
那心就会是晴朗的

一直在学习
习惯。。。
习惯你的失信
习惯你的遗忘
习惯被取代
习惯被忽略
习惯一个人
习惯。。所有的改变

***************************************************************************

记得那年圣诞
他和她
第一次 约会
那是暖呼呼的火锅。。。
你会记得吗？

心痛
所以不敢回忆
最遗憾的不是感情没了
而是失去了一段友情
从此 成为最熟悉的陌生人

旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
圣诞卡上满满祝福的话
地址写的只能是 心底

~圣诞快乐~

假期

hello people,

omg, i've not been blogging recently... all because of the monitor would not cooperate with me. alright, i had been kinda bored, super bored actually for the past few days... repeating the same life everyday -.-'' ... life is so out-dated without internet!!! argh!!!

tonight was sleepless... duh... everyone slept so sweet except me. i'm not able to close my eyes no matter how hard i forced my mind to rest. i'm actually felt tired for both mentally and physically but brain kept working non-stopped... that's why i'm here blogging in order to finish all my energy off and thus i could fall sleep very soon. hahahaha

yo yo yo...
santa claus is coming to town. . . . . .
how am i going to celebrate christmas day this year? having a turkey or lamb leg dinner during christmas eve??? no idea, exactly... perhaps i'm not a christian. (=
hohohohohohohohohohohoho
anyway, i wanna wish everyone a merry christmas and prosperous new year -- 2009!!!! (=

time to rest...
till then~~

假期 VIII

yo yo yo ...

i'm back from Brunei!!!! 2 days & 1 night trip... especially thank to Empire Hotel to provide free accodomantion and food to us. LOL! This was the 1st time i been there... & according to others, it was a very high rated hotel and indeed IT WAS!!! Luxurious is all i can describe. You even can find theater and cinema in the hotel. It is located near beach. I love beach but i scare tsunami more... (:

all sorts of facilities are available there. golf, swimming, spa, gym, water sports... etc etc... well, the most interesting thing is that you can find a large mirror at every corner of this hotel. Never ever think I have a chance to stay there & I rather spend $$ to singapore since Brunei is such a boring place for me... no shooping mall, no night life... NOTHING... that's the reason we spent most of the time in hotel. But i did notice many luxury cars. Brunei people are damn RICH....

We had buffet dinner, buffet breakfast, and lastly buffet lunch... I almost puke because of those delicacies. To be honest, they should put more effort at food. And dad said that the kitchen facilities of imperial hotel is much better @.@ anyway, workers are friendly and polite. So regret i didnt bring my swimming suit along... argh!!!

this bed is enough for 3 adults and 1 infant... lol

the long bath

seaview from our room...

the corridor

little felicia played non-stop

took pic with portrait of brunei sultan...lol

little felicia read the tour guide under big sun!! freaking hot la!!!

buggy ride

couple pic... hahahahahaha

usage of big mirror!!! XD

little felicia so enjoyed with this long bath...
**i personally heart this pic alot!! hehehehe**

yuppss... i'm now looking forward to the gathering on 20th dec at Eminates Bay

till then..

heartache

there was yesterday afternoon when i went out with joanne for i think almost 3 hours. . . from imperial to toys world. lol. . . in order to fulfill our saturday afternoon. it was a cloudy day and the shopping mall was so crowded~~MIRIAN = RICH, undoubtedly!!! hahahahahaha except yhui, yuanhui and I!! lol. . . and having dessert ice-cream again!!!! omg. . . from double cone to single cone. . . from kalamansi to mango favorite. . . i SERIOUSLY so so so so afraid of the ice-cream from dessert right NOW as i really do visit dessert quite often recently...!!!

well... craving for more than 1 week. . . .finally my comp came back to me. . .it just like a new bought comp. . .nothing inside . . . even Microsoft!!!! i wonder how could i do my assignments when new sem starts. . .
those precious pics. . . favorite songs. . . . cartoons. . . . recipes. . . games. . . study materials . . . msn emoticon ...all GONE!!! feel like crying loud loud loud LOUD. . . the one and only benefit is that i eventually can play the childish game, pet society again!!! but who cares!!! i want jim brickman. . . i want those pics with friends and family!!! i WANT!!!!! but everything in my mind now is like building the castle in the sand.

well...
i seriously don't know what happen on me during this holiday. . .
seems like all bad luck wanna stick with me. . . .
first, mouse throw its tantrum to me. . .
fine. . . i personally still can afford a MOUSE!!!
then, computer suddenly attacked by virus?
fine. . . my SUPER generous bro sent it to undergoes surgery. . .
and now. . when it was discharged from the "hospital". . .
turn for the BENQ monitor to explode its temper to me. . .
can u guys imagine. . .
the monitor REPEATEDLY switch off and then switch on automatically. . . it was kinda spoiled! i really cant remember how many times it turns off and switch on again when i blog NOW.. WTH!!!! i was extremely infuriated by it. . . .
i'll always remember u. . BENQ!!!!!

alright, something i feel fortune or i should say that's the way i used to ease my heartache!!
at least my comp don't fall sick when i really need it for my assignments . . . or on the half way to complete assignments. . . hahahaha
stop here ... out to search a better monitor . . . lol

假期 VII

lalalalalalalalalalala

. . . . . . . .

feel like updating my blog. .

but really dont know what should i type...

ok. i'm superduper bored as usual. . .

same as joanne...

repeating the same life everyday. . .

watched twilight yesterday night

with her

&

with rats.. .. .. =.=''

&

with little gastric pain...

&

the child behind us was so annoying!!!!

&

i heard a girl. . . talked softly near my right ear. . . .

"i'm so cold"

@.@

...

but i still enjoyed popcorn alot with soft drinks... hahahaha

how nice if coated green bean or peanuts could with me too.

after movie...

three stupids stayed in coffee bean until 1230 am

just aimed to fix the wireless device. . . . =.=''

ermmm. . .

still, same as joanne

waiting for the return of shinta LAU WEI WEI

&

waiting for the hair cut with her. . . hahahahahahaha

&

next wednesday

i wanna watch IGOR!!!!

dont know why, i just unable to say NO to CARTOON!!!

ms joanne, do u wanna join me again???

(:

~~ another bored day ~~

与其说是结束，不如说是新的开始

那天醒来
忽然想开了
不愿再做等待的女孩
开始不再想你
开始接受无奈
开始承认失败
开始不再为彼此找借口
开始忘了所有的好
开始忘了所有的寂廖。。。

如果那两个字没有颤抖
我不会发现我难受
泪在漂 心在掏。。。
多么痛的领悟，
你曾是我的全部
只是每当我回首时
路的每一步，都走的好孤独。。。
牵着你 陪着我 也只是曾经
你眼里的我也不再清晰。。。

害怕每天醒来都要想你好几遍。。。
每当闭上眼，
总是可以看见，失信的诺言全部都会实现。。。

现在
才知道
看透彻了
心就会是晴朗的。。。

假期 VI

哈哈哈哈哈
超兴奋
宝贝终于回家了！！！！

终于可以听 jim brickman 了！
终于可以到 pet society 帮baby冲凉。。。吃东西。。。赛跑。。。扮美美了。。。
终于可以在网上八卦了！！！！
终于可以继续追连续剧了。。
终于可以。。。可以。。。可以。。。不用再闷下去了
哈哈哈哈哈哈
真是太。。太。。太。。太。。太。。兴奋了！！

姐终于回去考试了
家里又少了一个人。。。
少了一个人疼我
少了一个人跟我吵架
少了一个人请我吃雪糕
少了一个人陪我度过漫长的假期
少了一个人。。。陪我过圣诞。。。倒数2009

一月
姐又去念书了
对，我又可以有车架了
但
又少了一个人疼我
又少了一个人跟我斗嘴
又少了一个人骂我
又少了一个人带我吃好料
又少了一个人买。。。给我
又少了一个人。。。

又要回到。。。
一个人对这大大的房间。。。
不舍得
不舍得
不舍得
就算每天都跟你们吵架。。。
我还是会不舍得

期待
新年。。。
一家人又可以聚在一起了！！！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

倒数7天
紧张紧张。。。