do you believe in miracle?

people used to say that only those stupid will believe it
and they said miracle is only used to lie stupid people.
just because miracle is way too beyond reality
but you know, there were plenty of miracles happened
during my internship period.
okay la, i admit that am desperate enough cause' of control
that's why am here craving for miracles to approach me.
hopefully, miracle comes to me once again
for tomorrow test.

there can be miracle when you believe.
best luck
:)

down down down

little snacks corner at my super messy com table
it keeps seducing me while am revising on the not-so-understandable-notes of APC
feel like giving up to study the APC
feel like letting the disturbances to occupy my life
feel like screaming at the people who sabotaged my internet connectivity when am receiving important files!!!
sighs.
the feeling of not able to concentrate is really frustrating
the feeling of being disturbed when am not able to concentrate is kinda head-aching
the feeling of having a gastric with a full stomach is pretty enraging
and
the feeling of stuck at the exam hall is bad~ bad~ and still bad.

又是毕业的季节
看着那些照片
家人朋友爱人的祝福
好羡慕
好开心
好感动

明年的这个季节
我也会毕业吗？
=.=''''

>:

爱情，有时候，是一件令人沉沦的事情，
所谓理智和决心，
不过是可笑的自我安慰
。。。。

last sunday...

received cousin's call after had a very full breakfast on last Sunday morning. he and his wify were inviting jie jie and I to have a few hours short trip to Brunei. i knew their feeling, as their mama and my mama were traveling together at that moment. how could us just being as a fool and stay at home!!! lol... and thus, they drove along from bintulu to miri, and further proceeding to brunei to fulfill our Sunday.

.... short of words to blog erm...

and mama was back eventually.
:))))

一杯雪糕的时间 ....

guess this means you're sorry
you bought me my favorite ice-cream

when we were just finish fighting....
:'(
was trying hard to crack my head
just wanna find a reason to
forget and forgive
all these
...

peeping at you from the reflection of window
and i told myself
the furiosity would be gone
after i finished the favorite ice-cream
:))))

♫

...

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy,
ever since you went away
Every hour of every day,

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy
No matter what I say or do,
there's just no getting over you

...

but
you will never know all these now
as if i will never get to know
how much you're thinking of me at the moment
yeaps!! it's thinking, not missing.
lol

weekends just end as the speed of lightning

slacked after the APS test on friday..super low productivity during the weekend or perhaps i should say, no production at all. finally, i've found the notebook that i lost for approximately 3 week + and after i bought a new one to replace it :(. finally, i've sent the email of requesting an informational interview for dr. chua.

yet, i have not find more articles/journals for the FYP yet; i have not read the magazine that ms. lau lend to me yet; i have not start on the petroleum assign 2 yet; i have not conduct this and conduct that yet.... all i've done during sat and sun was eating, shopping, watching series... sighs. why i just can't concentrate and concentrate and stop regretting at the end of semester.

hate monday
but to be frank, i actually dislike sunday
and somehow saturday night depresses me as well.

...

and i miss my superwoman...
she's bad. so bad for not calling back!!
can't really adapt to the meals that sis-in-law cooks everyday when mama is not at home.
shhhhsss....

sat i'm in love :))

generated a little surprise for favorite man tonight since he was kinda upset for something. but actually the idea was embarked in my mind about a week ago. to be frank, the mars and snickers chocs i mentioned few days ago were actually wanna buy for him. yet some of them were being stolen by myself since i needed them to subside the pressure on assignments and test. thus, i replaced with some ferrero rocher which was my last christmas present from w. whereas the card was actually only being bought today as i kept forgot about it. :))) and i've put everything in a boulevard plastic bag as my little handbag did not has enough space to equip them and i told him that was the rubbish i wanna throw when he asked with curiosity. lol


after dined, he rejected my invitation to watch the roadshow of my favorite car CRUELLY and we were heading to his home since he said he was pretty tired. i've persuaded him to stay at downstair as i wanna hide inside his room to write on the card i bought. :))) this was the consequence of slacking too much the whole day and thus i've no time to write some words on the card... eventually, i put them secretly on his bed before went back home.

:)))))

that's the one and only thing that am able to do though i know those childish things will not help him in solving any problem that he met. at least, to gain a smile of him like this -- :D.

may lady luck will always stay by his side and bless him to go through all these obstacles with courage and confidence.

♫
...
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
...
♫

so sad...

screwed the test this afternoon... i anticipated the highest that 'm able to score in this test is only 20/100. am going to celebrate if i got more than that :)))).. and the air-con was so cold inside the room and the heart kept beating fast as time was running out but my progress was as if a snail creeping in the land and the brain kept cracking hard to get some ideas to bluff in the analysis question, aimed to get some sympathy marks from Mr. J and the both hands were freezing continuously within these two hours...

sighs.
nothing is better than "sad" for describing my feeling now
so sad
and my eyes, my brain, my body are worm out...

what i gonna do now is simple,
hugging my snoopies, hide inside my moo moo blanket...
close my eyes and sleep as much as i can during rainy night.

:)))

desperately desperate

truly depressed after meeting with my FYP supervisor though my research project is totally literature review, that is much more easier than those who are doing experimental research projects. she stressed me deeply and i stressed myself thoroughly. to be frank, i would rather to do experimental research topic. at least, am still able to elaborate my discussion based on the experimental data obtained with my bluffing ability.

and the god damn separation test, and my revision speed is so slow and my understanding capability is limited and the time is running out, and the calculator keeps showing alien words to me .... and this, and that... all these just make me can't really breath a sign of relief ...

thus, i spent half afternoon to pamper myself by purchasing chocs from Famous Amos and a piece of white choc. macadamia from SR. the mood is gained a little bit after replaced a new batt for my scarred calculator. hopefully it will perform pretty good and assist me during the test tomorrow.

the Mars was digested in my tummy now and am wondering whether i should go downstair and open the freezer and take the white choc. macadamia cake to obese myself. hey tummy, stop persuading me to find fattening snacks to appease u ok!!!

eating those fattening snacks brighten my days.

yawn~yawn~
thunders rumble
how strongly i wish i could
tidy all the notes and tutorial and lecture slides right now
and jump to my lovely bed
hug my snoopies
hide inside my moo moo blanket
and SLEEP la!

i just wanna rest awhile....

sighs.
should not wake at 0400 yesterday morning for doing the PSD II assignment 1
did not sleep for almost 21 hours.
and it's already 1 in the morning
the assignment still haven't done yet.
and later 8am class....
kill me PLS!!!!!!
this is the consequence of starting everything the last minute!!!
argh!!!!
why, why, why i never learn the lesson!!!!

wanna hug my snoopies and hide inside my moo moo blanket and sleep as if it's still during free week.
:'(((((

－？终点？－

看见了
终点就在前方
却如此遥不可及啊！
终点之前
尝尽了辛酸苦涩
终点之前
历尽了棘刺阻碍
麻木地向前 决不后悔 直到终点
go go go
打起精神 迎接所有挑战
别再懊悔浪费的时光

但，我依然很怕
无穷的考试、作业。。。
:'(
没有选择的余地
没有逃避的机会
傻傻地
笨笨地
渐渐地
龟速地
前进直到终点
还有
好好地
勇敢地
度过仅剩的大学生涯吧！

。>< 。

很多人，因为寂寞而错爱一个人
更多人，因为错爱一个人而寂寞了一辈子
凝视自己的影子 寻找你的影子
如今，
即使一个人 也不再寂寞了
即使一个人 也不再难过了

超级不想要一切如此迅速地结束
假期 假期 假期
:'(

bla....

出门再好
也不比自家的狗窝暖

杂草重生
开始懊恼

如果人类没有头发多好
=.='''''
那就没必要烦恼它有多杂

如果人类没有眉毛多好
=.='''''
那就没必要忍受拔掉的痛楚

如果人类没有腋毛多好
=.='''''
那就没必要。。。。

如果没有黑烟圈更好

。。。

the day after April fool

a 3 days 2 night trip to sibu
erm... don't know whether it's right
but since 'm so slacked at home
why don't just have a break to refresh my mind
though it's kinda tiring..


~ have a safe trip, to you, you, you, and you, and us... ~