临睡前
我总希望着
明天醒来
眼睛 痊愈了

但，
每天醒来
我又再失落一次
戴上让我很没自信的眼镜
到处告诉别人我很没自信

:'(((((((

the new member...

my new toy

:))))

it's the only booty that i hunted during the tiring trip last week!!

the reason why did i choose lion was simple :-

as i am a true leo!!!!

people said it looks fierce and fugly but i think it looks quite handsome!!

it has its own temperament and is unique among the other

lol

i know it sounds boastful but that's what LEOs are!!!

and the first weeks of this semester is gonna end soon.

it's really beyond my imagination that

how speedy and silently the time flies

new semester...

waked kinda early last few days when i was not at miri and thus i think early class on the first day of new semester isn't a big problem for me!!! :))).... and when i downloaded the materials needed for the 1st class tomorrow... i nearly faint!!!! why??? aspen hysys again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why why why... why i just cant get rid of it!!! it's so annoying and i still remember how TYL failed my final paper!!! it made me get a grade 5 for that subject!! i hate grade 5 LA!!!! the feeling of staying all night long just aimed to finish the god damn group project last semester still embark in my mind!!!! i don't wanna back to school!!!!!!!

and my eyes are hurted and my stomach is suffering from gastric this few days after i had my dinner!!!!! :(((((((

and my internship............... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life's hard, undeniably!!

:D

will be leaving here tomorrow and only will be back on Sunday!!! this should be considered as my last vacation during this holiday. and then have to return back to school life. sighs. it's too bad that i am not able to spend the last few days of holiday with favorite man. going to miss him again... :'((((( he used to spend less time on me. and i can imagine how this situation getting worst when my new semester commences. but life isn't all about bf and gf, i knew that. :))) he should pay more effort on his career while i should be more energetical on my studies for better future.

LoL... future!!! normally, i dare not to think about future. but you know, i was stunned when i browsed the academic background of the lectures that are working at curtin currently. i knew that i am so weird but i really did that when i was extremely bored . :)))) comparing with them, i personally think that am not only a good-for-nothing, but wasting my time every seconds. i can't have a better life in my future as i am not able to get a better job with better salary in a better company with my so KNS results!!! had went through some self-reflection afterward and i eventually throw all the responsibility to favarite man and lastly i decided to give up on our relationship. what a selfish gf i am!!! however, this stupid thought is then failed very soon. LoL!!

and a funny stranger sent his pic to my hp when 'm blogging. too bad, not his naked pic la!

LoL~ ~ ~

a little update

i just can't understand why am i so stupid that willing to stay at favorite man's office whole day long... from morning 9 until 6. staying at his office is kinda sickening for me as he starved me the whole morning and only had my brunch on 1 something. he keeps dizzying me by playing his childish game repeatedly until i need to prepare a plastic bag for myself. yups, a plastic bag to load the vomit. lol....

and yesterday went to Marybrown with favorite man and sis. was our very fist time to go to the new opening Marybrown here with high expectation. but the food was so disgusting and caused me a bad digestion. yuaks!! i hate MARYBROWN now!!!!!!!!!! the tomato source there had a very weird smell that sis claimed it was like the smell of cockroaches!!! while the soft drink tasted a little bit of the smell of running water!!! *puke*

the last time we took this was 2++ years ago :))))) heart heart him!!!

sis and my bun face! *screams*

and i purposely took this pic as Ms. Joanne got this also! LoL!!
mango puree is simply irresistible!

holiday will be ended soon
:(

loss

suddenly the fattening donuts came to my mind!!
yups...
simply miss the 50 donuts that favorite man bought me months ago...
and recently was seriously indulged in popcorn
it really addicted people especially when you are
watching series for killing your time and to fulfill the holiday
:)))

it's a week till the commencement of new semester
i don't wanna school!!
i don't wanna sit for the god damn testsssss!!!!
i don't wanna do the endless assignments and revise endlessly!!!!
:(((((

and when i think of the application of the internship position
i * puke *
it's as if a bloody hell for me
* screams *

♥ drowning ♥

coming gradually...

as expected, shell declined my internship application
yesterday. 1925pm
5 days after the interview
3 working days..
then i was disqualified
lol

new semester is about to commence
a week left
and eleven thousand is gone
yawn yawn yawn
how hard i need to work to meet end need and
to pay the debt from Hi-Ed after completing my studies?
i think possibility i need to repay the debt until my last breath
but i don't mind
what i really scare about is that
there is without a company willing to hire me
then i got no money to repay everything i owe now

somehow i feel Chem. Eng.
is totally not suitable for myself
argh!!!!
i don't suitable to be an engineer
but everything is just too late...
time won't turn back

i can only proceed forward instead of regretting
the decision that i had made 2 and half years ago
....

it's fate!
:(((

...everything is coming gradually with time...

朋友？

其实人家常说
西马人很没人情味
其实我觉得
东马人未尝也不是

真得很抱歉
其实我很同情
但是
我真的帮不上忙！！
超乎本人能力范围内。。。

朋友，
你会明白的吧！
呵呵

西马人
东马人
其实都一样 一样都不是人

emo + ing

so emo tonight
i just can't sleep no matter how long
i lay on my bed with my snoopies
and i still can remember the nightmare that
i had during this afternoon
it's freaking trembling!!!!!!!!!!
darn!!!

thus
i chased my sis away from my desktop
i think surfing internet can make me feel sleepy easier
instead of taking sleeping pills

:'(
cry loud loud...

i really don't know the factor that cause me so down!!
so annoying!

run off >.<

sighs.
i hope
the house's phone would not ring
on 10 in the morning tomorrow
:)))))))))))

please do forget me like how
you forgot me last time
i don't mind seriously

i just not able to take a deep breath and relax
i just can't let myself be the best i can be on tomorrow
i wanna hide inside a hole

i just want to escape
instead of facing it!!!!

definitely, am a loser!

in desperation.

whew!!

been slept from noon till evening after back home
'm extremely tired and exhausted!!
i love home!! i love my bed!!!
i just miss everything here!!!!
and my eyes so hurt for wearing contact lens
from day to night for five days long!!
i even bought the medicine for eyes to comfort them
but it didn't help much.
was really can't bear with myself to be so idiot,
to bring the glasses case along but without putting my glasses inside
darn darn darn!!!

well,
the experience to overnight at airport was so terrible!!!
had lied on the chair of coffee bean and napped whole night
back pain and legs were suffering from paralysis yet the seat there
was much more better than those provided at the airport
thanks for the workers of coffee bean for not chasing us away!
HA HA HA

not only that, it was kinda embarrassing when the police in the airport
specially approached you and requested to check for your IC
it's normal if the police did so to everyone
but it's kinda weird and embarrassed when you're the one and only!
:(((((((((((
i actually can't really see the reaction of other passengers
when the two polices approached us as due to my eyes condition
i took off my contact lens at that moment
but i could strongly sense that they stared at us with curiosity
or i should say colored eyes sight?
sighs
we're innocent and which part of us looking like doing illegal stuffs??
the funniest thing was that they still asked why did we wear MASK?
OMG... wearing mask = terrorists? lol
we just wanna avoid swine flu la!!!!

sighs
kl trip was ended
and result will be released very soon.
god do bless me!!!
and there's still lot of things are waiting for me ahead
internship, interview....

**puke**

no matter how strongly you want to escape your problem
at the end,
you still need to face it!

so just face every single obstacle
bravely and courageously

sighs
i need hug

little update

hello people!!!
am currently located at tanjung malim...
a very small and freaking hot kampung....
:)))

walked whole day yesterday
from sungei wang
to times square
and then pavilion
and lastly walked back to the place we stayed again
it was extremely tiring for a lazy girl like me
to walk so much within a day
and i can feel hurt for my both legs
:(((((

and this was the 1st time for me to experience
the "true" feeling of window shopping
when we went to pavilion
as they are too unaffordable and pricey for us
=.=''
but i actually forced myself to wait till Sunday
since the mega sale will only be started on 4th July!!!
i can imagine how herng and her beloved one
are enjoying the mega sale right now!!!
i want also la!!!!

well, there is no pics for this trip!!
lol
a bit regret for not bringing the camera along
when we went eating at pavilion!!
as the scene of the restaurant was so outstanding
especially during night time!!!!
possibly you can see how nice it is when herng uploading their pics!!!
lol

craving for tomorrow going back to town again!!!
shop shop shop
being shopaholic!!

:)))))

thinking of you

hi July!!!!
another brand new month
:)))
hope i could get some feedback from
the companies that i had applied for internship
soon. very soon
god please do bless me
i need internship!!!!!!

and finally i had accepted the
internship appointment of shell
on 10th July morning 10
in charge by Ms. Roslina
:)
i actually have no idea who she is
lol

2331
i will be in the flight during the next day
and the flight is preparing to be landed
on this moment

awww..
i feel tired when i think of this trip
coz
i miss little felicia
i miss my mum
i miss my favorite man
i worry nobody feeds mr.lobba
....
there are too much things that
i can't let down
i miss every single thing of my home

first time i feel not so excited to travel actually
lol
have to worry about the swine flu
though i know am strong
i don't wanna end by life by this virus
i don't wanna infect people around me
:))))))
and not yet pack my luggage

freaking tired
freaking sleepy