another random post

frankly i don't know why i'm blogging here... i feel sleepy actually but what to do, i just can't lay down with wet hair. & what to do "once again", many foibles i have & one of them are -- it is a must for me to SHOWER before on bed no matter how late it is, & hair must be washed!!!!

sometime i feel so hate of these foibles! you know, there are so annoying and because of these stupid foibles i can't sleep earlier most of time!!! and so, dark circle & eyes bags never leave me... thicker concealer should be put on my eyes!!! argh!!! :((

the only way for me to neglect these stupid foibles is not to sleep on my own bed & not hugging my snoopies!!! i know i'm a WEIRDO!! but since FOIBLE is a kind of psychological diseases, i can't do anything for conquering them unless i beat against the odds inside my mind!! argh!!! i've tried countless times to persuade myself, yet i just end up with failure!!! what a loser I'M!!! :(((

was kinda extreme on last Saturday night. i've drove from my home to desserts just aimed to have my favorite kalamansi ice-cream on 9pm. & i'm ALONE!!! all in all, i've learnt a lesson --- having favorite things ALONE is simply saddening.

& i looked such like a lunatic to have ice-cream SO LONELY in corner. i can sense that everyone who walked inside the shop looked at me with a color vision. To be frank, i felt like gave them a glance as return & asked them whether it's a SIN to eat ice-cream ALONE!!! had cursed my favorite man deep inside my heart & i just wanna leave that place with the speed of LIGHT la.

after left the so-irritating-place, had drove to many other place alone. & actually tears rolled down on my checks... loneliness suddenly poured over every cell of my body!!! it's really SO STUPID to park my car aside & cry ALONE!!!!!!!! i don't know the reason to make me CRY badly.... i just don't know why....

well, a call broke the silent of the night, was from my beloved mum!!! wOw.. how warm it was!!! she reminded me to back home earlier!!! another lesson i've learnt that night --- home is my refuge!! home is my shelter when there is no place i can go.

i felt childish and apologized for my attitude that night.. HAHA.. but it indeed a very good try u know. had learnt 2 lessons within a night! is WORTH enough!!! :))))))

till then...