growth of her...

last Wednesday had received an emergency sms from sis when i was attending class... she asked me to help her make a video about the growth process of Felicia. i wondered why the course she studies includes such thing??? @.@...

had rejected her that moment as i never ever tried to use WINDOW MEDIA MAKER before!! i know i'm so OUT!! but frankly, the main reason is that i felt super lazy to find all those pics & lazy to learn how to use the software as well.

as you guys know, i'm a very kind & soft-hearted person!!!! (so boastful xp ) i helped her in the end. probably i'm too free, just like a bird flying in the sky freely since there is without any class on Thurs & Fri...

i don't know whether it is considered as a VIDEO? but since i can't find a better name for it, so just called it as VIDEO. i know it looks cacat as i just simply edited it. lol. my very 1st handmade "video" in my life >.< ... & this indeed a good experience ever!! remember to give some comments!!! hehe




oh ya, our little princess is celebrating her birthday tomorrow!!
WoW!! she's officially two-year-old!!!!
happy birthday to my adorable niece!!!

and so,
my two days holiday ... were OVER!!! :(

* miss my favorite man so badly :'( *

child is the gift from God...

yo yo yo...
9 months later,
a new member in kho's family will be born....
eventually,
had received a better surprise gift today...
a surprise gift which is much better than those from previous days...

i can...
notice the excitement of the mummy when she is intended to announce this good news to all family members...

i can...
comprehend how the granny felt delighted but she tried to act nothing special in front of every family members...

i can...
read how the grandpa felt blissful & kept sending sms to inform his two daughters which are not at home right now...

i can...
see the happiness of the mummy & daddy from the expression of their eyes...

also,
i can...
sense the cheerfulness of the "new" elder sister, little Felicia...
when we are asking whether she wants a baby brother or a baby sister. she replied with a very sweet smile & two dimples, said: "mei mei"....
she no longer feel lonely when playing with her toys...
she has a good chance to learn how to share with others, to take care of the younger...

so far,
i can imagine next time ...
how the house is bustling with noise...
the granny is busying in & out...
the grandpa smiles till can't see his goldfish eyes...
children running around...
& the 姑姑sSs work like a maid ... @.@

...
i'm so glad to be one of the members in this family...
though it ain't a very wealthy family...
it's warm & sweet enough...
i can see everyone of us is holding each other no matter how tough the life is...
i can see everyone of us is still caring for each other even after quarrel...
i can see everyone of us is trying to help each other when one is in bad situation...
i can see everyone of us is never giving up on each other...
i can see everyone of us is willing to beat against the odds together....
.......
& thanks to my beloved mum & dad to bestow me so many siblings...
i really do appreciate it a lot!!!!!

home is the place i feel to love & to be loved...

long for...

suddenly I'm thinking of my favorite man darn darn MUCH...
though we just had a meet this afternoon...
though we are sms + ing...
though we are msn + ing...
as thinking of him, fill me with a wonderful feeling... (=
miss his pamper, tenderness, care, voice....
perhaps there is too many occurrences happened around me recently.
had received too many "surprise" giftsSss from people around me.
these are totally none of my business but i just can't stop my mind thinking & make them more terrified.
i just don't know why my expertise is only this!!!
:(

the 2nd day of school...
everything is still in a terrible mess...
probably i still in holiday mood and so, not able to adapt the lifestyle of studying...
i keep feeling sleepy at 9pm ++ ... & wake so early in the morning...
sleepiness is with me at early night & insomnia likes to visit me before dawn..
argh!!!!!
my dark circles... are getting worst & worst...
pimple pops out on my cheek...
it not only offend others' eyes, but it makes me feel PAIN too!!!
:(
honey, i miss u badly!!!!!

&
actually i do miss Chan & Pei Yee too...
life of study is like missing a piece with the absence for both of them at class!!!
nobody gives me lecturer notes to photocopy anymore... :(
nobody gives me pass year final paper to photocopy too...
nobody shares exam tips with me...
nobody teaches & explains to me PATIENTLY when i'm blur...
nobody chit-chat as well...
:(
:(
:(

but
great to know that finally Joanne has found her prince!!!
yo yo yo!!!!
happy pakto + ing!!!

last but not least,
i'm so hate of being fat!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!

that's all my grumbles...
till then.... a very good night to you all & myself.
xp

mad mad MAD

argh!!!!!!!!!!
i hate to burn the midnight oil!!!!
i hate to prepare everything last minute!!!!
but why i used to do that in my life!!!

"we are what we repeatedly to do. LAZINESS, then, is not an act, but a HABIT." yhui (1988-xxxx)
suck suck SUCKSS!!!!!!!!!!
laziness please go away from me la!!!

how am i going to sit for the moral studies exam on this coming Monday!!
seriously, I extremely feel so hate to exam on the first day of sch!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not able to log in pet society whole day long!!
sigh...
i can't earn coins for my baby...

alright,
time to rest.
MUST finish all lecturer notes by tomorrow!!!!!
i wanna be a MORAL person!!!
yo yo YO!!!
good luck to myself!!

till then...

sickness

recently little Felicia ain't feeling well....she keeps diarrhea & do vomit sometime. she loses her appetite & totally reject to her daily milk no matter how hard we try to coax her. so far, her little cute snoopy-belly is disappeared.

because of these symptoms, she is forced to absent her daily nursery. & so i become her temporary nanny since everybody is away for working while mum ain't come back yet.

was brought her to consult a pediatrician yesterday. the doctor claimed that it's an epidemic disease.
not only that, it is an INFECTIOUS illness as well...

@.@

today,
little Felicia has four diarrhea with a puke
while, poor me... the virus is now attacking my body...
i had few diarrhea in an hour!!!!

#$#^%*@#!$^&*

Felicia's mum is infected...
some of Felicia's maternal family are infected too....
i can't predict who will be the next person to be infected in home...

i don't know the name of this virus,
but it indeed a hyper abominable virus!!!
it is DARN scary!!
invisible...
without taste...
not able to hear...

seriously,
i dare not to fart now as i scare the excrement will be disgorged together. xp

hope little Felicia get well soon....
hope everyone who is infected can get well soon...
god bless us ...
to bestow us strong immunity

oh ya...
remember to keep distance from me to avoid being infected!!!
i totally without any ideas on the ways for this virus used to infect others...
lol

不一样的情人节

在这浪漫的季节里
我想，每一对情人
无论是在奢侈、普通。。。的环境下庆祝
只要每一分每一秒彼此能够一起呼吸，拥有着彼此，爱护着彼此。。。
都会觉得无比的幸福，快乐。。。
但，
如果今天是为心爱的人筹备葬礼呢？
那是多么的叫人心疼。。。
多少的伤痛都要强忍着，
面对亲朋好友要假装坚强，
面对儿女要掩饰所有悲痛，把葬礼搞得风风光光。。
多少的泪水，都往肚子里流。。

小舅母，终究熬不过死神的魔手
终于，在今天
结束了病魔对她的煎熬，结束了短暂的一生。。。
知道消息后，心了疙瘩了好久。。。
我怕。。。
还记得，上一次见到她。。。应该是十多年前的事情了
我。。。无法再记清她的五官。但，她很美。。很美
小时候，一到学年假期。。一大群表兄妹就集聚一起
虽然，那些往事只能回味，但。。那是童年最美好的回忆
如今，
因为地理关系。。。我，无法出席葬礼
但，心里会默默地为她祈祷。。。
解脱了病痛。。。一路好走

人，
终究会离开
只是时间的问题。。。
有些人早走，有些人慢走。。。
没有人可以预知。。
唯一能做的就是。。。珍惜拥有的！！
失去了才后悔，一点意义都没有。。。
更无济于事。。。

你，
还在为琐事而对爱你的人闹辩扭吗？？
你，
多久没陪家人吃顿饭了吗？
你，
还在抱怨的不停吗？

如果你还在为自己找借口，
如果你还在浪费时间无理取闹，
下一秒，
也许你把眼泪都哭干了
你爱的人，爱你的人。。。
只待追忆。。。

借这浪漫的季节，
好好地珍惜所拥有的家人、情人、朋友。。。

情人节快乐！！！

sad mode

seriously,
i start to hate 3rd year of engineering course even the sem haven't commenced yet!!!
why why why....
i just cant understand why the industrial training must be implemented only after the 2nd year of engineering course???

also,
i hate airasia!!!
why... why....
why the departure time for the 500,000 free tickets ain't available for ME!!!!
now everyone can fly???
but WHY!! i just cant FLY!!!

well,
i hate my sister's Uni too....
why, WHY...
why... she can only graduate at the end of the YEAR, the time which is not available for ME!!!!

i hate myself...
why i'm the one to help them booking air ticket but not for MYSELF !!!!!

i just hate everything now!!!
why i cant join in this vacation!!!!!
WHY!! tell me WHY!!

but...
think the bright side...
i have million chances to go vacation when i become a pro engineer in the future. . . ( but how if i.... hehe)
in order to be a pro engineer, the 1st thing i MUST achieve is...
do not screw my industrial training...

ok,
face the truth... face the reality...
and accept my DESTINY!!!!
i'll stay at home alone and go industrial training when everyone is away for vacation...

:(

depressing...

happy chap goh meh!!!!

finally,
the moral presentation is done...
finally,
i can breath a sign of relief...
finally,
i can be concentrated & start to prepare the little gift for my valentine in this coming romantic season
finally and finally,
the day for me to relax till the MAX is here with me...

* bounced up & down... *

hope i can do well in the coming final too... seriously!!!
3rd year... no more kidding...

* i wonder why my friends always so slim & i always so huge *

* herng & i *

wonder why i don't take pics with leng??
i did took with her actually but too bad
until now, she haven't feel free yet to online and send me those pics...
that's y i don't upload pic with her here...
the group pic will be uploaded soon at my facebook once i get a copy from the leader. (=

oh ya, happy chap goh meh everyone!!!
& of course,
happy "china" valentine's day!!

till then...

wishes for u...

a special day for someone...

who is special in my heart, my life...

a friend since primary four...

no matter how far the distance between us...

no matter how long we are not able to meet each other...

no matter how rare we are able to chit-chat...

11 years of friendship...

never fade, never deteriorate...

ain't easy.

oh, my dearest Jim,

wish you a wonderful and memorable 21th birthday...

may your life full with happiness and healthiness...

may our friendship last long...

life is great because of a friend like you!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

moral? immoral?

recently i spend most of my time on bluffing...
all because of the moral assignment...
i'm a moral person now, exactly
after bluffing for 10 pages long... (actually less than 10 pages as i attached some pics inside to make this individual report achieve 10 pages long. lol... )

yet,
my bluffing level has upgraded...
& the ways to go shortcut always emerge in my thought. . . . (=
and so, end up with immoral values pour over every cell of my body in order to fulfill the demands of this unit.

my dark eyes circle become serious because of this assignment...
i'm not bluff about this as i just don't know why the ideas to bluff always come to me at midnight.

*sigh*

and now, i'm going to prepare the speech of presentation for next Monday!!!
2 more weeks to the 3rd years of engineering course in my life. . .
now all i wanna do is . . . .. relaxing to the MAX!!!

oh ya, it's a week time to the romantic season! (=

brand new start: Ox Year

and so...
today is the 8th day of CNY. time flies silently & impassively... January is gone and February is here with me... I'm wondering why everything seems so fast? a week before, it was the 1st day of CNY & I served guests until puke. a week later, I'm free like a bird & killing my time by blogging. these conditions are D.A.R.N extreme & thus i feel like I'm still dreaming!!!

sticking with my favorite man a week and eventually he has to back to his job today. this means that i have to be friend with loneliness again. frankly I've learnt something in this "a week break". Before, i get to used to mutter about either the time he spend on me or those empty promises he had promised. yet right now, i began to understand the meaning of freedom. I found that I'm so hate of being caged but on the other side i like to cage him. there seems to be a contradiction between how i want him to treat me and the way i used to treat him. :(

all i want now is freedom exactly. i feel like unable to breath a sigh of relief every time i think my free time is occupied. i feel irritated & unreasonable one every time he blames me for ignoring his calls when i really not convenient to answer it. i feel disturbing every time he pops up outside my house without inform me earlier. i feel so afraid every time he ask promises from me. i feel ignored every time he relucts to follow my thought. perhaps I'm sick. Yet i think selfish is the best description to describe my personality... :)
human is selfish, don't you think so?? lol

I'm so eager for freedom but this holiday i keep asking myself why i used to expropriate his freedom? ain't he feel irritated, disturbing, annoyed, frustrated, depressed . . . . too? in order to request freedom from him, 1st i have to do is to return freedom to him. respecting each other is one of the better way to maintain a relationship last long. (=

very appreciate to this "a week holiday" or i should say thanks to Ox Year as i no longer get into a dead end & take unnecessary pains to study insignificant problem. what's the point to suffer pointlessly? i have family that i love so much & they do love me so much too. however, they love me not because i love them while i love them not because they love me. love ain't asking return, love ain't control, love ain't live for someone but live for our own, love ain't being irrational. the reason i love them is simple... BECAUSE I DO LOVE THEM! i have friends, studies, freedom, and of cause.. i have HIM too. lol.... i keep moving forward as when i turned back, I'm beginning to miss what's ahead of me.

had a fun & enjoy gathering with ex-highschoolmate at candy's house last night. this indeed a memorable moment. we had graduated for 2 years ... may you guys a healthy year and good luck either in studies or careers. all the best.

p/s: more pics will be uploaded at my facebook soon. cheers (=