你到底懂不懂
我只要一点温热的触碰

你到底懂不懂
有些话并不是一定要说

你到底懂不懂
我只要一个安稳的等候

你到底懂不懂
想你想得好像空气都停了

你总是漫不在乎 当我看着自己的稀薄

如果我能够继续等待
如果时间能够停留下来
如果……没有如果？

it's..

Lamborghini

weEhee~~



this was taken last year in front of hotel at Genting Highland
during our kl trip, April
.the orange color one.

and tonight...

...~woOhOoooO~...
favorite man "bought" this for me
lolx (in my dream)

went back home before 12.
no countdown as the
activities organized in front of al fresco were kinda bored.
nice songs are played though.
and a small small girl was dancing on the stage happily
with the dancers and was reluctant to leave the stage
no matter how hard her dad persuaded her.

so fun. so much laughter.
and so many big BOOBS to kap!!
lolx

sat night

BBQ just now with family and bro's pig dog friends

lotsa chicken wing... lotsa prawn... lotsa seafood... lotsa Pork... lotsa coconuts... and bla...

kinda bored though.

just eating and drinking and slacking and bluffing and feeding mosquitoes with some blood for their dinner..

no handsome guys

and still, no engtao guys to KAP

that's why SO BORED.

lolx

and it's weekend which meaning that week free is gonna end soon.

very SOON. guilty to say that my week free is kinda FREE.

spent one day to do FPP.. then the rest of time i just slack till the max.

yea. the consequence of over slacking is to receive a doom life afterward.

and let's prepare well to say...

goodbye Aug.

+

selamat hari jadi - Malaysia.

+

hi, Sept babe...

+

hi assignments!! hi midterms!!! hi.. DOOM life!

yea, i knew i am a big noob.

is currently trying hard to learn HOW to
accept what i've been destined
:)
and i hate the feeling of suffering from insomnia! darn
so sickening
:(

my metabolic age is 29...
:'(
my body fat is exceeding...
:'(

i'm so old

argh!!!

whew whew

went for dinner outside just now in order to pre-celebrate superwoman's birthday and it was super heavy downpour while the wind was particularly strong as the restaurant is located somewhere near river / sea.

the 1st time having dinner with some rain splashed on my body... yups, my back was half wet but favorite man was more unfortunately... his whole back was wet. however, there is without a murmur from us as this dinner was kinda satisfied and my tummy was nearly exploded by all the nice and delicious delicacies. nothing is better than celebrating special day of your beloved one together with your next of kin. i just simply love the feeling of being together with my family and i knew that everything would be perfect if eldest sis was with us just now.... hahaha... though she will be back in two days time.

being together with favorite man for 2.6+ years and this was the FIRST time he hold me an UMBRELLA under heavy rain!!! possibly the frequency to hold an umbrella for him is too little and that's why i get wet once again!! hng, even my dad isn't willing to put my feet wet by the rain la!!! hahahahaha

dad's . . . once upon a time

fruity cake, mum's favorite

well during the cake cutting time, our little naughty felicia has lead all of us to sing the happy birthday song... she's only 2+ but she now can sing a complete birthday song without any assistance from anyone of us!! recalling back to dad's birthday on March, she's still not able to sing birthday song completely. but now she CAN!!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you 奶奶~~
:))))

she's improving day by day... and is becoming naughtier and naughtier...

and fatter and FATTER.... !!! heart my favorite cute little niece!!! and i know there's one question in your mind now, why only cake pics are posted instead of other pics of the celebration?? yer, i just don't know why the photography skill of my sis can be as lousy as this de lo... all pics are blur until beyond description.

and the power supply of campus was breakdown on late morning when we were having experiments in the lab!! and Ms. Fam was in bad mood... her frustration and irritation were all wrote on her face. her expression was trying to tell me that.. DONT COME NEAR ME OR ELSE YOU'LL BE BITE. lolx~ the blackout was meaning that the lab was not able to continue and we have no choice but to REDO!!! wth, it's not 4 mins... but 4 hours la!!!! i hate replacement class and why Mr. Agus still haven't post the date and time for replacement yet leh!!! ish!! ish!!! ish!!! enough muttering

and now let's pray for me to get an internship position at MIRI...

:)))))))

internSHIT

and so...
i was back from the interview yesterday... very fortunately, the questions they ask weren't as deadly as shell's and the main language for this interview was using Mandarin with little Eng. language. so sadly, i keep answering each question stupidly. yups, very stupidly!!!!

"your drawing of HE is worse than a cartoon. how can you draw a HE like this after studying 3 years of Engineering Course?? and you see why i can draw better than you but i don't study as much as you.... blablabla... because i like to study.. i study myself... take course.... blablablabla..." that's what the interviewer told me after i showed him how HE looks like!!!! i not sure whether he wanna show off or i wonder he's kinda proud for himself as he know better than those Uni student but it's really so cruel to a LEO and my self-esteem is collapsed!!! i wanna cry by that moment but what i can only do is to reply him a smile. crying inside my heart but smile on my face!!! i felt so sorry to CURTIN!! to Ms. TYL... for xia soi curtin's face badly!!!

and the interviewer keep saying that i'm a GIRL and therefore i'm not so suitable to work inside the refinery plant and there's lotsa male workers working inside. WHY? WHY? why only male has the ability to work inside the plant but why the female just can't??? i really can't understand why in this new century, people still had discrimination on the ability of female!!! but what i can do is to reply him with a smile once again. but i smiled very sarcastically!! lol

sighs... undeniable, the working environment there is better and am sure lotsa experience can be learned by training inside a REAL refinery plant which will be so related to my career in future!!! i feel excited when i think about that but headache as it's located at bintulu!!!!! :(((((((((((( why miri is so lack of this kind of companies!!! argh!! or why curtin isn't operated at bintulu!!!!

internship
:(

SAVE ME!!!

sighs
when i think about INTERVIEW... my heart beat pauses for few seconds
but somehow, the more you dislike "something"... it will come to you more frequently...
perhaps that's how God tries to strengthen us by forcing us to face the thing that you dislike instead of encouraging you to escape the problem which hides deeply inside your heart...
the only consequent of escaping problem is leading you to an dead end. then your everything is ended as expected...
that's why, the one and only way to solve every single problem is to face it.. FACE it!!!

thus, my life is filled with endless INTERVIEWs....
God bestows me plenty of chances to resolve my fear... and the rest is depending on myself. to face it or to escape it.... to go or not to go... that's all about decision...it's as if the poem that we had studied in bygone days - the road taken and the road not to be taken..
there's without second chance if i made a wrong decision according to the misery condition of my internship applications.

sadly to declare, nobody wants me...

yups, i'll be off to Bintulu tomorrow for an INTERVIEW for my internship application after struggling for quite a long time. to be frank, i feel a little bit excited when i received their call. at least, there's still A company willing to give me a better feedback!!! ya~ the company is specialized at palm oil refinery and is located at Bintulu... somewhere far away from Bintulu town.... nearly an hour ride from town to the company, i anticipated. that's the ONLY thing i know about the company!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't know about palm oil. i don't know about refinery. i don't know everything about engineerS. what i know is that i need a company to hire me!!! :'(((((

ignoring the interview sections, i just not able to imagine how my life will be going on if i had no choice but to stay at Bintulu for 3 months internship. 3 months!!! it's 3 months!!!! 3 months without everything at Miri!!!! sorry, i just too vulnerable to be independent at all!!! :((((((( sorry mum and dad, i'm such a useless daughter!!! sorry bros and sis, i also can't understand why the youngest 1 always would be the weakest 1?? sighs...

i feel so much reluctance's filling every single cell of my body now and persuading my mind not to go to Bintulu for the interview, but i have no choice!!!! possibly i would faint in front of the interviewer if the questions he/she asked were as deadly as Shell's!!!!! :((((((((

god please bless me
lady luck please stay with me
i want nothing
but a placement of internship

charred experience

went to D'vine Crust for dinner just now. had ordered chicken cordon bleu but so sadly it wasn't be served yet even after favorite man had finished his meal for quite a long time. but still, i waited very patiently and we kept crapping while we were waiting for that.

30 mins afterward, finally my chicken cordon bleu was be served by a waitress. i was truly stunned when i first saw my cordon bleu. it was over fried and was so charred. the first thing came to my mind was that how could they still take the spoiled food and to serve others!!!

you know, i'm a very "cincai" person which means not picky at all. i don't really mind though the appearance of the food is bad. then i started to cut it... it was unusually hard. then i put a piece inside my month and masticated... the smell of charred nearly chocked me to death!!! by that moment, i was so annoyed and wasn't able to bear it anymore!!!!!! it's really beyond the scope of my patience and i wouldn't want to compromise anymore!!!

yupss i called the waitress to come and told her what was going on!!! but did you know what the waitress reply me after i make complaint???
she said:" we would like to change another food for you and you have to wait for another 20 mins as the cordon bleu is so difficult to cook..." !#@@%&&%#$
i really really not a very picky person and not purposely wanna find their fault BUT i just can't understand what's the point to put this meal inside the menu if the chef is not know how to cook it?!!!! darn.... if i still willing to wait for another 20 mins for another charred CHICKEN CORDON BLEU, please do call me a NOOB!! :)))

end up having my another chicken cordon bleu at SR at 930 pm. and i'm so full right now until have to suffering from insomnia!!!!! darn!!! D'v C, the culprit to cause me having dinner late at night and my tummy becomes bigger and bigger and my weight is increasing second by second and my dark circle is now incurable!!!!

Forgive & Forget
i'm a kind-hearted person!!
XD

great appreciation

万众宠爱集一身
对 这样说
实在很自负 也很不要脸
就连我自己都有点想吐
但 我实在想不到更好的形容词

我想不是在幻想 大家都很爱我
有你们在我身边 爱我一点
是你们让我的生命越来越甜
甜到胰脏几乎快要当机
无法排出的甜份 让我险些患上糖尿病
嘻嘻

这一天 有你们陪我庆祝
对着生日蛋糕 无言 愧疚
听着你们五音不全的生日快乐歌
微弱的烛光映照着我的脸
我既然忘记如何许愿

期间 一位美女走向我
兴奋地要和我分享个笑话
知道为什么这个生日蛋糕只有一根蜡烛吗？
不是他们不清楚我的芳龄
而是 我们有个超可爱的同学
他。。。很害羞 我总觉得他总是被欺凌的那个
话说 那位男同学 负责买蛋糕
他心想 二十一根蜡烛插在雪糕蛋糕上 那蛋糕不是必死无疑？
结果 他只向蛋糕店的负责人要了一根！！
当然 哄堂大笑 哈哈哈

当晚
HV 先生更是喝醉了 出了洋相 胡言乱语！！ 哈哈哈
还有警察抓杀手的游戏 恶心的炒饭处罚。。。
这一切的一切
不禁让我惊叹 原来我一直错过很多 很多
很多原本属于应该拥有的经验
很多原本属于大学应该拥有的生活

吃力不讨好地筹办活动 有多少人会领情？
一点一滴 都是你们不放弃的精神 才会有很顺利的聚会
真得很对不起 很抱歉 很愧疚 是我的无知 差点淹没了你们的心意！！！
一路上我真得很担心。。。很抱歉。。。
但你们没有怪我。。。 依然
为我烤肉 为我端水 为我送食物 为我唱生日快乐歌。。。

要我如何忘记和你们在一起的画面

the cunning Guna's doing something bad on the candle

the future chemical engineerSS.. i heart you all!!!

花钱买安心

人生中第一次看眼科
五点半出发 二十五分钟后抵达
很庆幸的 我是编号二
专科医生提早十五分钟开始诊病
七点前我就可以结帐离开了
超开心 因为我不用与琳和珩一样 挨饿
嘻嘻

等待的过程中
遇见一名眼睛病患和家属
因为我的位子距离柜台很近
隐隐约约可以听到他们因为医药费的问题和院方搞得很不开心
那名病患是个老伯 就坐在我隔壁
就当家属在柜台质询时 我听见老伯在喃喃自语
他不耐烦地重复说：“那么麻烦 不要看了 我去政府医院看。。。”

当时，真的有股冲动想劝他不要烦躁 应该好好弄清楚事情的来龙去脉
眼睛只有一对 没了 就是没了
即使再贵 也没办法 也得医治 钱没了还可以赚回来的
更不要意气用事 否则耽误了自己又何必呢？
既然当初选择了这个医生 把眼睛交给他 就要给他信任
再说，去政府医院 也是他帮你看 不是吗！！
哈~
美里的专科本来就是少得可怜

其实我倒觉得这个病患和家属 蛮不讲理
明明预约是明天 却因为明天有事而硬要挤进来
是什么事比眼睛来的重要？？
搞得护士们不知所措 还理所当然地说为什么不可以这样
就算你们复诊是有还钱的 其他的病患也是一样有还钱的阿！！！
你的病情很严重 其他病患的病情也是一样很严重啊！！！
就因为你的插队 要让原本已经预约的人等等等 等更长的时间。。
真是不可理喻！！！

其实也没什么好奇怪的 美里人的文明水平本来就不高
看那天天烟雾笼罩着整个城市 野火永远都灭不完
你就知道 美里人除了不文明 连基本常识都没有
烟雾就算了。。。你们没发觉周围的温度都在上升吗？
难道你们都不会怕吗？

还好
医生说我的眼睛很健康
痊愈了还是可以带隐形眼镜
只是太少眼泪 加上烟雾的熏陶
都怪平时哭得太多 把眼泪都流干了！！！ 嘻嘻
其实我也只是穿了件冒牌levis 也不用那么贵吧！！
就当花钱买个安心咯！！！值得！！值得！！
希望 真的可以快快好起来！！！
别让我百花了！！

祝我生日快乐

真的超感动
一班老同学 陪我一同
告别唯一的20岁
你说幸福是什么？
是开心时 不寂寞
是伤心时 不孤单
是从来都不被遗忘
是那简单又意义深重的祝福
是在特别的日子收到来自远方的祝福简讯
即使 眼睛红了整晚 也会莫名地开心
即使头发很凌乱 心理的恐慌也莫名消失
即使照片很丑 也会忍不住想拿出来和大家分享

20岁那年的我
具体来说 成就很少
少了充实的生活 多了迷惘的时候
除了盲目的生活 就是浪费时间
体重一直在攀升 皱纹没细过
挥霍20岁 我依然是幸福的
依然有疼我爱我的家人 朋友
当然 还有最爱我的男人！！
你呢？
20岁那年你在干嘛？

21岁
比20岁大一点点
拿过金钥匙 自由也许也会多一点点
对往后的生活又多了一份憧憬
距离踏进真正的社会的时间也越靠近
很肯定的 烦恼变多 压力随之而来
恐惧 恐慌 恐怖
唯一不变的是 我依然幸福
依然有疼我爱我的家人 朋友
21岁 新人报到 请多指教！！！
：））））

超感谢大家抽空为我提早庆生
你们总是那么细心 。。。
把重要的日子留给重色轻友的我 二人世界
你们总是那么甜心。。。
给我难忘的21岁 让我感动地快喷泪
你们总是那么用心。。。
让大家破费我真得很不好意思 除了感激还是感激
你们总是那么苦心。。。
凌晨12点钟的生日简讯 窝心得让我不舍得删除

请孰本人无法一一例名道谢 真得很谢谢。。。 大家！！！

很土 但还是要说
感谢我最爱的老爸老妈
给我生命 给我有那么多人爱 那么多人疼
感谢我最爱的哥哥姐姐们
给我依赖 让我那么需要依赖！！！ 哈哈哈
感谢我最爱的男人
是你教会我 去爱你！！ 嘻嘻嘻

希望眼睛早日康复

hi, August!!!

since i was back from kl trip, i can feel my eyes are no longer as healthy as before and this getting worst day by day until i have to suffering from redness and uncomfortable of my eyes for few weeks time. had bought the eye drops from pharmacy but the result is not obvious or i should say my eyes still remain the same after i applied it for five days long. i was forced to wear my stupid glasses wherever i go due to these condition. seriously, i am desperately desperate!!!! even the desperation has covered my irritability. :(((((

probably god can hear my prayer and thus HE sent me a savior to rescue my eyes. lol... i know i have overrated the person by addressed him as SAVIOR. but who cares? as long as my eyes are able to cure!!! :)))) had a long talk with friend who is registered as an licensed optician but is currently pursing engineering course last night. he is able to diagnose and identify the sickness of my eyes though he's not able to treat my eyes as what eyes specialists do. i was trying to tell him about the symptoms of my both eyes and finally he diagnosed that i was infected by conjunctivitis. yups, it's CONJUNCTIVITIS!!!! frankly, i don't really know what is that until he sent me a pic of a patient!!!!!! search from google if you are interested. :)

and so, my eyes are getting better after listening to his professional suggestions!!!! it's really amazing!!! the redness of my eyes is no longer as serious as before!! and i wonder i can wear contact lens very SOON SOON SOON! hahahahha... i hope!!! and i only know that eyes are dirtier than the running water!! yuaks!!!

and to friends who are using FreshKon branded contact lens solution... please dump it ok!!!! either choose Renu, Solo care, or Optifree instead of that lasap FreshKon!!!! yups, the optician told me that FreshKon is lasap brand!! lol~~ you'll regret if you insist to save few ringgit by buying FreshKon!! i am a good example to you guys!!!!! my eyes start to breakdown after i use FreshKon less than 5 times!!!! i still have a full bottle of FreshKon at my room which is newly-used, i can give you if you don't scare of IT!! hahahah....

please don't kidding on "the window of our soul"!!
XD