goodbye - MARCH

had presented badly for the presentation today...
HAHA......
nervous till the max...
what to do, the lecturer kept looking at me bah...
that's why my mind turn blank and just talking nonsense in front of so many people!
this is the consequence of being lazy to prepare my script.. HAHA

you know what,
today is the last day of March....
the day i hate the most so far in this year!!!
seriously, i hope everything happened today is just inside my dream...
'm so hate to face the FACT la!!!
can i reject to GROW UP!!!
:(
everyday drinking milk and sucking nipple and cuddled or pampered by people who loves me?

well, 3 days to mid-sem break... a two WEEKS long break!!
woW... wOw....
but still can't throw all the assignments and projects away!
haiz... student life!!
life is tough

goodbye MARCH...

♥ thanks for standing by me when i need assistance ♥

enchanted

my so-sweet favorite man had bought me a snoopy pillow case today!!
...wow wow...
although the color is a bit.... ermmm... ermmm...
at least got something from him which isn't request from me and also beyond my thought.
never thought he can be as romantic and sweet as today...
has reached my home beyond my expectation with a big bag of ingredients...
it's my dinner!!!
well, the dinner we cooked is so yuak...
but sweet till the max.!!
xp

As we grow older together...
As we continue to change with age...
There is one thing that will never change. . .
I will always keep falling in love with you.

♥ thanks for being everything for me ♥

embarrassed night

feel like mining two holes for my favorite man & i in order to fill both of our heads inside each hole!!

what a so SO so.... embarrassing NIGHT!!!

went supper just now & argh!!!! had forgotten to foot the bill and left the cafe without any perception!!!! only realized this stupid incident when i reached home & for him, totally forgot about the BILL!!!

really felt sorry to the person in charge of that cafe & of course thanks for providing us free supper!! yet, i think i'll not to go to that cafe anymore in short-term. it's really TOO embarrassed!!!

how if our pic was taken by VCR there & the person in charge is intended to stick it on the wall with " MOST WANTED" as the title and showed to the public!!! ARGH!!! or probably we will be on the headline of NEWSPAPER tomorrow with title of "BEWARE of this COUPLE LIAR"!!! argh!!!! so unbelievable!!!

to be frank, this isn't the 1st time for us to forget to pay bill...
we had twice experience before...~~HA~~

1st time was on last year when we had ice kacang on a Sunday afternoon. the taogeh stopped us that time... ~~~HA~~~

2nd time, last year too... & was at BOULEVARD!! really could not imagine how stupid we ARE!!! we just brought the THING away the counter after the packer put it inside plastic BAG without pay!!! so DARN!!! of course, the cashier stopped us THAT MOMENT!! ~~~~HA~~~~

and today, the 3rd time... and nobody stopped US!!
........

***deep deep sigh***

had went through these two days in an unproductive way!!!argh!!! why am i so LAZY!!! 'll stay at home obediently tomorrow and start doing assignment. (=

yeap yeap...

had switched off lights, computer, air-con .... all different switch at my room & bathroom before i left home just now!!

save our earth, save our life, save our new generation
for a better quality of life

♥ feel so bliss to have you in my life ♥

a sarcastic day

felt extremely baffling today...
meanwhile, felt super sneering as well!!!!
everything seems so sarcastic to me the whole day.
and so,
had termed today as SARCASTIC day!
...HA...
don't ask me why...
as i really don't know why....
that's why 'm here grumbling again!
....HA....
no matter how black the day is, i always treat it as experience in life...
without those obstacles, how could my life be fulfilled??
.....HA.....
suddenly miss mee goreng instant alot....
nearly going to cook supper for myself on an impulse
but the capacity of my suppression is too HIGH.
that's why impulsion is always lose to my suppression...
......HA......
and suddenly gastric come to torture me again...
this week had gastric twice already!!
so d.a.r.n!!!

-- with deep sigh --

feel like updating my bloggy in the spur of moment when 'm in the half way revising Transport Phenomena which also has been termed as "Terrible Problems" by Ms. MayLin!! how creative & innovative she is!! xp

to be frank, i still don't know the max. level of terrible that this subject can be as my revision progess so far still remain at 30%. yet i know it is much crazier than MTO, which had been screwed badly by me last week!! argh!!!

besides, today is the 2nd time for me to be absented at PPE lecture later on 1230... the 1st time was on last week for preparing MTO test and as consequence screwed the test severely. today, i skip this lecture again just aims to revise TP . will i receive failure once again????

**shrugging**

when 'm in the edge of depression on studies... lucky clover always come to my mind. i know, perphaps you guys may say i'm over superstitious and have blind faith in it. but, the fact is that exams ain't all about how much you have prepared and how much effort you have put on them, but depend on LUCK as well!!!

no matter how much you believe on the fairy tale of lucky clover...
i, personally... would like to share this unique lucky clover to you guys & wish everyone who is going to sit for TP exam tomorrow --- GOOD LUCK and all the best.

god bless me, god bless US!!

kalamansi night

after craving for such a long time, eventually had my favorite ice-cream - kalamansi again... but this time was so much different than previous. at least 'm not having my favorite thing alone like last time. lol.

i know i should not going out at this peak season plus there are still lots of assignmentsss and examsss are waiting for me to complete and prepare. argh!!! what to do, kalamansi is much more attractive ba! HAHA...

had asked my favorite man to help to shoot pics with my favorite ice-cream just now. i know this is kinda childish and stupid but at least i can recall the taste of kalamansi by looking at these pics when i really really miss it! xp

not only that, had gave my favorite man a little gift for his understanding and pampering all the time. a ferrero rocher chocolate which i bought at brunei long long time ago. should be last year if not mistaken. HAHA. to be frank, i felt a little bit guilty as i only give him a gift on specially occasions but he gives me not only special occasions but also when i ask for. HAHA.... that's why i gave him the chocolate which will be expired on his birthday!! HAHAHAHA...


had forced him to post happily when received the chocolate in front of others. 'm really a king of the evil la! what to do, fooling him becomes my favorite habit nowadays! and he seems like enjoy alot! HAHA.. chilled at desserts nearly an hour and took lots of stupid pics together...


a kinda relax night with him but argh!!!! lots of assignments are waiting for me la!!!!!!! :(((((((
till then...

black tuesday

as the title of this post... 'm so BLACK today!!!
had screwed MTO test 1 which worth 20% over 100%. OMG.... i don't wanna fail MTO bah!!! i don't wanna take supp!!! of course, no re-take as well!!!

..... slap slap slap .....

why 'm so stupid!! why my brain becomes so disabled day by day!!! is this the syndrome of getting older?? if so, can i reject to grow up??? can i reject to getting older???? argh!!!

& had short of pencil lead when i really need for drawing graphs,tables, schematic diagrams during the exam!!! D.A.R.N!!! i never thought i can be SO out of luck as today!!! where my luck goes!!!! come back to me LA!!! argh!!!!!!

i know i should start my ESD task 1 now instead of grumbling about the test which is irreparable. all what should i do is to learn from mistakes & to be HARDWORKING onward!!!! stop building castle in the sand, stop doing anything which is not aid on studies, stop being lazy, stop being regret as what had happened will never be turned back.... blablablablablabla... etc.

pei yee claimed that 'm so cool for facing the failure on the test .. PEI YEE, i feel hurt actually... 'm just good at hiding my sad feeling to others!!!! xp

well, i know it is not the time to blog now. year 3 is all about endless assignments and exams!!! haiz!!
and so, it time to BLUFF my assignment again!!!
ESD task 1... 'm come to u NOW! will pamper you as my sweetheart!!!

till then....

another random post

frankly i don't know why i'm blogging here... i feel sleepy actually but what to do, i just can't lay down with wet hair. & what to do "once again", many foibles i have & one of them are -- it is a must for me to SHOWER before on bed no matter how late it is, & hair must be washed!!!!

sometime i feel so hate of these foibles! you know, there are so annoying and because of these stupid foibles i can't sleep earlier most of time!!! and so, dark circle & eyes bags never leave me... thicker concealer should be put on my eyes!!! argh!!! :((

the only way for me to neglect these stupid foibles is not to sleep on my own bed & not hugging my snoopies!!! i know i'm a WEIRDO!! but since FOIBLE is a kind of psychological diseases, i can't do anything for conquering them unless i beat against the odds inside my mind!! argh!!! i've tried countless times to persuade myself, yet i just end up with failure!!! what a loser I'M!!! :(((

was kinda extreme on last Saturday night. i've drove from my home to desserts just aimed to have my favorite kalamansi ice-cream on 9pm. & i'm ALONE!!! all in all, i've learnt a lesson --- having favorite things ALONE is simply saddening.

& i looked such like a lunatic to have ice-cream SO LONELY in corner. i can sense that everyone who walked inside the shop looked at me with a color vision. To be frank, i felt like gave them a glance as return & asked them whether it's a SIN to eat ice-cream ALONE!!! had cursed my favorite man deep inside my heart & i just wanna leave that place with the speed of LIGHT la.

after left the so-irritating-place, had drove to many other place alone. & actually tears rolled down on my checks... loneliness suddenly poured over every cell of my body!!! it's really SO STUPID to park my car aside & cry ALONE!!!!!!!! i don't know the reason to make me CRY badly.... i just don't know why....

well, a call broke the silent of the night, was from my beloved mum!!! wOw.. how warm it was!!! she reminded me to back home earlier!!! another lesson i've learnt that night --- home is my refuge!! home is my shelter when there is no place i can go.

i felt childish and apologized for my attitude that night.. HAHA.. but it indeed a very good try u know. had learnt 2 lessons within a night! is WORTH enough!!! :))))))

till then...

矛盾

突然觉得
一个女人一辈子最悲哀的
并不是 嫁到一个会抛弃她的男人
而是 发现
自己一直以来最信任的男人对她说过的无数谎言

信任
原本是维持一段感情最好的良方
但 后来发现
原来这只是让自己觉得更伤、觉得更笨
进而加重自己伤心的程度。。。

当发现
原来真相并非如同自己的想象后
当发现
原来自己那么信任的男人是如此丑陋后
当发现
原来和自己最亲近的男人是如此陌生后
是 晴天霹雳
是 热泪满脸
是 不知所措
是 伤心意决
是 心如刀割

男人啊！！
难道你们不知道这对一个女人来说是如此的残忍吗？
抛弃糟糠
真的会。。。。会。。。。会。。。。。
会怎样我也不知道！！
呵呵

真的 好喜欢那句话
“一对恋人刚开始在一起时，
是男人比较笨，女人比较聪明。
日子久了，
男人变聪明了，而女人却越变越笨”

真的很矛盾，
是该信任，抑或是不信任呢？

而我，
虽然本身经历了不多
但身边人的故事却看清了不少
我，依然和以前一样
从来都不相信会有不变质的感情
所以
我总是为了保护自己而对我的男人有所保留！
哈！！
我真的不想那样
但
谁能担保。。。
以后的你不会变成谎言满腔呢？？
谁能担保。。。
以后的我会对你痴心绝对？？

we're only HUMAN!! sometime we make mistakes...
another thing is that... i'm a LEO & you're GEMINI!!!

hey gals,
treat yourself better this moment onward LA!!

wOw...

had tried the extremely COOL Polaroid software that Kah Rou had introduced in her blog!!!
wOw!!
it makes me so ADDICTED!!!

... 3rd month of year '09 ...
wOw!!
what had i done so far apart from wasting my time??
@.@