updates

well

after self-precipitating during these few days
i think it's time to blog again!!!
:)

and i just come back from the dinner which
organized by Miri 许氏 Association
that aimed to celebrate 孝亲节

to be frank,
i was touched!!!
deeply touched by some sections
especially when the organizer broadcasting 钱不够用2
the scene when the old and sick mum begging
her son not to dump her at the nursing home
.sighs.
this is why chinese always say that
久病无孝子
and the songs playing were just marvelous!!!

and eventually
had a hair cut today
which cost me 25 bucks
:(
and i actually still can't believe that
i requested the hairstylist
to cut my hair shorter!!!!
i wanna keep it longer..
but why did i asked her to help me to cut shorter??
* self slapping *
the differences of before and after hair cut
are that
huge bush became smaller bush..
thick bush became slimmer bush..
long bush became shorter bush..
and i look so NOOB and numb
with the round fringe cut.
lol
in a nutshell,
my face looks rounder yet head becomes lighter
:)

and this pic was taken during favorite man's
24th birthday
with his 24th birthday present.
yupsss... he's officially 24!!
and i still 20
* wink *
i love old man
:)
and he looked kinda sissy here!!!
♥ heart him ♥

till then

more pics would be uploaded soon in my fb
when i feel like not so so so lazy to upload
:)

desperation

'm in need of a hair cut so badly!!!!
'm lack of self confidence with this kind of bush hair
'm suffering from inferiority with an out-of-shape curly hair
'm losing self esteem with this disorder hair

if you were a leo,
possibly you would know what kind of feeling
that 'm suffering right now
argh!!!!!

seriously, terribly....
it despairs me day by day

sad
why am i so useless

and i just not able to concentrate at all!!!
:'((((((

Get to know yourself better

feeling bored or under stress on whatever thing that you are doing now?? why don't try some personality tests to get to know yourself better instead of being desperate?

to access to the test, kindly click here . HA~

had tried this test since 'm so so so bored when assignment + ing and result of mine is in the follow.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
comment:
kinda accurate! HAHAHAHA..... ** so vain** if you ain't attracted by me or don't feel like talking with me, implying that you ain't cheerful and FUN enough ... HAHAHAHAHA

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
comment:
who doesn't like romantic?? romantic once in a while is acceptable, but if everyday i don't want also la.... romantic is all about money!! HA~! do anything and everything when 'm in love -- i never thought that 'm mighty GREAT in love! HAHA....

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
comment:
i don't think i knew my favorite man so thoroughly & adequately before deciding to start our relationship. you know what, i just grasp how disgusting his teeth were after being together with him for 2++ years!! YUAK!!!

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
comment:
probably the level of my seduction still unable to satisfy the appetite of opposite sex and that's why i don't think i have lots admirers around my side! or perhaps they prefer to play secret love! HA~! ** so vain again**

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
comment:
yea, education is important for me. i wanna study hard and of cause learn as much as i CAN. but laziness always beat me down... :(((((

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
comment:
ermmm... ... ... i'm so like of being lazy. :)))) i prefer staying at home and goyang kaki all the time.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
comment:
yes, family always my top of priority. you know, winning the world but without those you love and those love you sharing the success of you is simply saddening. that's no point of being success in anything.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
comment:
exactly. 'm trying so hard to be INDEPENDENT.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
comment:
yea, so sorry to my favorite man!! HAHAHA~~


how much do you know about yourself??
:)))))

another random post

frankly i don't know why i'm blogging here... i feel sleepy actually but what to do, i just can't lay down with wet hair. & what to do "once again", many foibles i have & one of them are -- it is a must for me to SHOWER before on bed no matter how late it is, & hair must be washed!!!!

sometime i feel so hate of these foibles! you know, there are so annoying and because of these stupid foibles i can't sleep earlier most of time!!! and so, dark circle & eyes bags never leave me... thicker concealer should be put on my eyes!!! argh!!! :((

the only way for me to neglect these stupid foibles is not to sleep on my own bed & not hugging my snoopies!!! i know i'm a WEIRDO!! but since FOIBLE is a kind of psychological diseases, i can't do anything for conquering them unless i beat against the odds inside my mind!! argh!!! i've tried countless times to persuade myself, yet i just end up with failure!!! what a loser I'M!!! :(((

was kinda extreme on last Saturday night. i've drove from my home to desserts just aimed to have my favorite kalamansi ice-cream on 9pm. & i'm ALONE!!! all in all, i've learnt a lesson --- having favorite things ALONE is simply saddening.

& i looked such like a lunatic to have ice-cream SO LONELY in corner. i can sense that everyone who walked inside the shop looked at me with a color vision. To be frank, i felt like gave them a glance as return & asked them whether it's a SIN to eat ice-cream ALONE!!! had cursed my favorite man deep inside my heart & i just wanna leave that place with the speed of LIGHT la.

after left the so-irritating-place, had drove to many other place alone. & actually tears rolled down on my checks... loneliness suddenly poured over every cell of my body!!! it's really SO STUPID to park my car aside & cry ALONE!!!!!!!! i don't know the reason to make me CRY badly.... i just don't know why....

well, a call broke the silent of the night, was from my beloved mum!!! wOw.. how warm it was!!! she reminded me to back home earlier!!! another lesson i've learnt that night --- home is my refuge!! home is my shelter when there is no place i can go.

i felt childish and apologized for my attitude that night.. HAHA.. but it indeed a very good try u know. had learnt 2 lessons within a night! is WORTH enough!!! :))))))

till then...