in a mess

yep yep...
had tried this snack after reading the blog of MM
i actually wanna try the fried chicken with burger
yet, favorite man had bought me a pack of spicy fried chicken flakes as he knows i fond spicy so much...
seriously, i felt super spicy after eating few flakes ...
probably, 'm getting older and older... that's why the ability of me to eat spicy food is getting lousier and lousier
:(((((

what a sad day!!!
never thought that the 1st day of school after week free is kinda embarrassed... had screwed MTO so so so BADLY..
wondering 'm the one and only who had failed in the class...
HA~~
20% is gone... it's GONE!!!!
and i can't imagine the coming test 2 since Dr. Farouq claimed that the test would be harder than test 1..
** puke**

god, please bless me...
please combat and kill all the worms of laziness inside my body
please make me to be clever a little bit... i don't ask much, a little bit is enough for me
:)))))))

well well,
there's useless crying over split milk...
no one will pay pity on YOU!
wake up wake up!!!
i know i sure can win all battles even those i have lost in the past!! HA~~ HA~~ HA~~
so sarcastic

staring doing something benefit instead of BLOGGING and GRUMBLING!

hahahahaha....

... till then ...

goodbye - MARCH

had presented badly for the presentation today...
HAHA......
nervous till the max...
what to do, the lecturer kept looking at me bah...
that's why my mind turn blank and just talking nonsense in front of so many people!
this is the consequence of being lazy to prepare my script.. HAHA

you know what,
today is the last day of March....
the day i hate the most so far in this year!!!
seriously, i hope everything happened today is just inside my dream...
'm so hate to face the FACT la!!!
can i reject to GROW UP!!!
:(
everyday drinking milk and sucking nipple and cuddled or pampered by people who loves me?

well, 3 days to mid-sem break... a two WEEKS long break!!
woW... wOw....
but still can't throw all the assignments and projects away!
haiz... student life!!
life is tough

goodbye MARCH...

♥ thanks for standing by me when i need assistance ♥

black tuesday

as the title of this post... 'm so BLACK today!!!
had screwed MTO test 1 which worth 20% over 100%. OMG.... i don't wanna fail MTO bah!!! i don't wanna take supp!!! of course, no re-take as well!!!

..... slap slap slap .....

why 'm so stupid!! why my brain becomes so disabled day by day!!! is this the syndrome of getting older?? if so, can i reject to grow up??? can i reject to getting older???? argh!!!

& had short of pencil lead when i really need for drawing graphs,tables, schematic diagrams during the exam!!! D.A.R.N!!! i never thought i can be SO out of luck as today!!! where my luck goes!!!! come back to me LA!!! argh!!!!!!

i know i should start my ESD task 1 now instead of grumbling about the test which is irreparable. all what should i do is to learn from mistakes & to be HARDWORKING onward!!!! stop building castle in the sand, stop doing anything which is not aid on studies, stop being lazy, stop being regret as what had happened will never be turned back.... blablablablablabla... etc.

pei yee claimed that 'm so cool for facing the failure on the test .. PEI YEE, i feel hurt actually... 'm just good at hiding my sad feeling to others!!!! xp

well, i know it is not the time to blog now. year 3 is all about endless assignments and exams!!! haiz!!
and so, it time to BLUFF my assignment again!!!
ESD task 1... 'm come to u NOW! will pamper you as my sweetheart!!!

till then....

不一样的情人节

在这浪漫的季节里
我想，每一对情人
无论是在奢侈、普通。。。的环境下庆祝
只要每一分每一秒彼此能够一起呼吸，拥有着彼此，爱护着彼此。。。
都会觉得无比的幸福，快乐。。。
但，
如果今天是为心爱的人筹备葬礼呢？
那是多么的叫人心疼。。。
多少的伤痛都要强忍着，
面对亲朋好友要假装坚强，
面对儿女要掩饰所有悲痛，把葬礼搞得风风光光。。
多少的泪水，都往肚子里流。。

小舅母，终究熬不过死神的魔手
终于，在今天
结束了病魔对她的煎熬，结束了短暂的一生。。。
知道消息后，心了疙瘩了好久。。。
我怕。。。
还记得，上一次见到她。。。应该是十多年前的事情了
我。。。无法再记清她的五官。但，她很美。。很美
小时候，一到学年假期。。一大群表兄妹就集聚一起
虽然，那些往事只能回味，但。。那是童年最美好的回忆
如今，
因为地理关系。。。我，无法出席葬礼
但，心里会默默地为她祈祷。。。
解脱了病痛。。。一路好走

人，
终究会离开
只是时间的问题。。。
有些人早走，有些人慢走。。。
没有人可以预知。。
唯一能做的就是。。。珍惜拥有的！！
失去了才后悔，一点意义都没有。。。
更无济于事。。。

你，
还在为琐事而对爱你的人闹辩扭吗？？
你，
多久没陪家人吃顿饭了吗？
你，
还在抱怨的不停吗？

如果你还在为自己找借口，
如果你还在浪费时间无理取闹，
下一秒，
也许你把眼泪都哭干了
你爱的人，爱你的人。。。
只待追忆。。。

借这浪漫的季节，
好好地珍惜所拥有的家人、情人、朋友。。。

情人节快乐！！！

sad mode

seriously,
i start to hate 3rd year of engineering course even the sem haven't commenced yet!!!
why why why....
i just cant understand why the industrial training must be implemented only after the 2nd year of engineering course???

also,
i hate airasia!!!
why... why....
why the departure time for the 500,000 free tickets ain't available for ME!!!!
now everyone can fly???
but WHY!! i just cant FLY!!!

well,
i hate my sister's Uni too....
why, WHY...
why... she can only graduate at the end of the YEAR, the time which is not available for ME!!!!

i hate myself...
why i'm the one to help them booking air ticket but not for MYSELF !!!!!

i just hate everything now!!!
why i cant join in this vacation!!!!!
WHY!! tell me WHY!!

but...
think the bright side...
i have million chances to go vacation when i become a pro engineer in the future. . . ( but how if i.... hehe)
in order to be a pro engineer, the 1st thing i MUST achieve is...
do not screw my industrial training...

ok,
face the truth... face the reality...
and accept my DESTINY!!!!
i'll stay at home alone and go industrial training when everyone is away for vacation...

:(

depressing...